Love you, Love me.

OUR SWEEEEET MOMENTS~!
PS:THE BOTTOM LEFT PHOTO LOOKS LIKE OUR WEDDING PHOTO! HAHAHS.CAN'T WAIT TO TAKE WITH CHERYL CHUA JIA YAN! :D

HAHA!
finally there's something nice to talk about in my blog after a few posts of some emo posts..hahas
yesterday was a saturday, but there's no YA service, instead we have a seminar @ Church Of Good Sheperd..
hahas..the seminar was good, and surprisingly, i do manage to take and absorb alot of things during this seminar and i really can focus! :D good job JJ. :D
hmmm..it was a more 'traditional' church i would say, and the in-charge of the church wasn't quite happy ( i think ) when the YAs are fidgiting and eating sweets during the seminar..
although we didnt disturb the whole church, but they seems not to get used to our culture tho..hahas..
nevertheless, we are the same body of Christ and must stay united..! hahas..
they were kind and they welcomed us..

after that dearest and i went for my bro's birthday party! HAHA..
and guess what?
they started to make fire since 5pm and by the time i reached (7 plus), they still haven set up the fire! LOLOLOLOL.
but then i actioned to help, because i've started fire before, in the end the fire still haven started until my bro's friend came to added some help finally..
lol..so the whole fire started only at 8 plus where alot of my bro's friend came alr! LOL.
SO EMBARASSING..!
but the whole night was a good time for my brother though..
although he never say much, never show much, but can see that he enjoyed his time alot la.
hahas..
HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY MY ELDER BROTHER!

after that dearest and i stayed over with my elder brother and his gf..hahas
not even one of my bro's friend stayed over lor.. -.-''
but it was still fun la..talked to lydia(bro's gf) more than ever..hahahas..
it was a get-together night..
the next day we woke up..had breakfast..and my bro and lydia went home le..
but dearest and i WENT ESCAPE! :D:D:D:D

but then HOR..
not much games we could play..SERIOUSLY..
is like SHITZXZXZXZ man..
lucky the admission ticket is free..if not i seriously waste my $17.70 just to go in and see alot of trees and bushes.. -.-''
dearest and i still managed to have fun and get wet at the same time! HAHA.
we also won some of those mini-games booths and dearest got home a colourful dolphin and a wide-grinning gorilla plush toy..HAHA..

after all the wash-up..we went to eat and everything..
then we go arcade and have some fun! HAHA.
like kids arh we all..LOL..
then we took neoprints! :D hahas..
and we were so sotong la..the whole neoprint machine is like in japanese language and u cannot even understand a single thing so dearest and i just anyhow click on something..hahhahas..
but it came out nicely! :D
the photo's on top FYI..LOL

dearest really had a good time..can see that the people around me so happy..
this is the first few times i felt this kind of peace and inner joy in my heart..to see the people around me so happy and blissed..
i'm starting to understand why God wants to ask a rich guy(i cant remember who) to gave up his fortune and everything to follow Him..

because the things that God wants us to experience is something that money will never ever ever be able to buy.. :)

dearest, thanks for the time and i hope u really enjoyed your weekends this week.. :)
LOVE YOU! :)

MISERY.

just came back from a rather long and superrrr HOT day of work..
it's always good to go home after work..even the air in the atmosphere smells and feels different..
came home and online..as usual..clear up emails..play fb..and now got chance to really pen my thoughts down into something comfortable.. :)

hmmm..
work was okays..was unusually quiet today..just felt that too many new people came in..
no time and no chance to talk to them also..kinda felt abit left out since the older ones which i always talk to, talks to the new people now..
sometimes really felt that i cannot clique with alot of people..
oh well..
like i always say to cheryl, be INDEPENDANT..
i don want to be like a tortoise, always have to carry a shell behind and walk..
must learn to be like an eagle, can fly freely, and can spot and catches their own prey fast.
yeaps..
so today's work was quiet all the way..
Eng knew i was kinda quiet today..so he brought Luke to my tower to accompany me..
although he nv says, but i really think that he take cares of me alot..
he knows people inside out..so im really grateful that he steps in my life to give me so much learning experience and stretch my knowledge about how this world can really be..

REALISTIC IS THE WORD.

well..
shouldn't talk much on that issue..since it's a long one and im not interested to talk about right now..

my parents sold off my current flat last last thursday..
its a confirm thing if im not wrong..
so our current plan was to move to Lorong Ah Soo..its right opp Paya Lebar Methodist School..
kinda familiar with the place since we used to stay there before we move to serangoon (current house), and my sec school is nearby also..
now we have to move back.. -.-''
hmmm..no objections for me of course..
initially i thought it was a good thing for my parents and for the whole family..
but when things are getting more REAL in a sense that it's gonna happen (since my parents always say about moving house but didn't do anything), my brother gave quite a strong objection when my parents initially suggests the idea to him..
mind you, it's just a SUGGESTION..and he flared up..
quarrels after quarrels almost every night..left me quiet and thinking alone in my room..
how to help in the situation?
like any typical chinese family, they will stereotype that 'the youngest has the LEAST stand in the house', so how can i help?
every night quarrel and quarrel and quarrel..
i just listen at one corner..feeling why this family is so negative now?
parents backslided so many years, don't even have the initiative to really go back to God.
brother's on and off in his church..
that's the reason why i always listen to my parents..to really let them know that i'm still following God's footstep strongly and really want to be their mini role model in this situation..
but i dun think they bother anyways..
imagine your family every night at around 11pm-12am quarrel so damn loud as if the walls are sound-proof, how do you feel?
imagine after every quarrel, your mum cries, how do you feel?
imagine your mum was looking at those old photos and say that we were so cute when we were young, and started weeping in tears when she says that what happens when we all grown up, how do you feel?
it's so heartwrenching to see my mum like that..
she's the person i respected most..and not my dad..seriously..
sigh..
so this is what's happening to my family now..

my family has been so 'encouraging' these few weeks really makes me a weaker person in terms of spiritually and mentally.
my relationship with dearest hasn't been good also.
i just dunno why, but it seems that i can't do things right when i'm with her..
will just make her unhappy and everything..in the end everyone just ended off badly..
i just felt so lousy..
in the end i cannot take it and just really broke down infront of dearest yesterday during the bus trip home..
i felt the overwhelming misery in my heart, in my mind..
i just duno what to do and how to do it..

but God has been so faithful that it really makes me weep during the praise and worship yesterday..
He is always so patient and caring for me..
even though everything seems so bad, His light shine so brightly..
imagine a light bulb lights up in a total black room..
He's the hope i've got..
im starting to get so dependant on Him..which is good..

but after all this crappings..
i still feel so lucky..
the people in Haiti was so poor thing..an unexpected earthquake just came and crushes everyone's heart..
those people that hearts are broken have 2 kinds :
1. people who are dead
2. people who survive
either ways, their hearts are crushed.
felt so much compassion for them.
i'm gonna move more to the compassion side.imagine you really put a smile on their face. it's enough alr.

thats all.

i feel that the shaking has already begun since dunno how long ago..
but i believe that dearest and i can pull it through with God's nudge in our lives..
so dearest, to encourage you to just push on for our relationship, i really wan to encourage you in something that i am confident of and is music..

Kings Of Leon - Use Somebody

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, fill the places I can't reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me, somebody

Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I've been roaming around,
Always looking down at all I see

to my dearest..

love you dear..you know i always do..and i believe that you are always there for me..
like wise i will do the same for you..because that's what couple really for..being there for each other..backing each other up..
you know that i could use somebody and that you dear..
never give up okay..we will persevere and breakthrough the difficult times together..
to prove that our relationship is a tough and is a 'house' that is built on solid rocks and not on sinking sand..
someone like you and God, dear i'm blissed..more than happy to have you guys in my life..
dear...this is the first love letter i'm writing to you now and i believe that there are more to come..
be encouraged and let's stick together..'when 2 becomes 1' rule applies all the time..
so we make sure no one falls out ya?
love you cheryl..love you one and only dearest..no one else could really replace your position in my heart..
nothing could express my love for you..because my heart has been roaming around..
and found the 'somebody' that locks in my heart.. :)
love you dear..