Love you, Love me.

CAN WE REALLY LIVE WITHOUT MONEY?!?!?!

CAN NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT?!?!?!?!
CAN NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT?!?!?!
CAN NOT?!?!?!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH.WHY EVERYTHING NEEDS MONEY TO SURVIVE?
MONEY HERE AND THERE..
FUCK MONEY LA..KNN..

people with money will be recognised, people without money will be dumped..why?!
why is always rich people that is on the front pages of any magazine/ newpapers, but not normal citizens?

money money money..all need money..how to survive in this world now without them?
everyday eat rubbish?

what the fuck.
i'm so broke and desperate for some cash now.
all because of my fucking hand, i cant work?

this holiday sucks.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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first few days is as pain as hell, and slowly, my left hand's movement is gettingmore and more lousy..
hmm..
cant really clench my fist either..oh well..
but the operation was cool! i stayed awake the whole time, looking at that thing that was cut off from me..has a good chat with the doctirs while in op..hahas..nice exp..
but nowadays..i've been doing things one-handedly..like..
1.bathing
2.eating (like a caveman now)
3.brushing teeth (includes squeezing of toothpaste)
4.typing this blog entry now!

yeah..so i'll take longer time to do stuffs now..haha...
gtg..ciao

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Frankie Valli
Can't Take My Eyes Off of You

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived.
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

Pardon the way that I stare.
There's nothing else to compare.
The sight of you leaves me weak.
There are no words left to speak.
But if you feel like I feel.
Please let me know that it's real.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

I love you baby, and if it's quite all right,
I need you baby to warm the lonely night.
I love you baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh pretty baby, don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh pretty baby, now that I found you. Stay.

And let me love you, baby. Let me love you ...

I love you baby, and if it's quite allright,
I need you baby to warm the lonely night.
I love you baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh pretty baby, don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh pretty baby, now that I found you. Stay.

Oh pretty baby. Trust in me when I say: Oh pretty baby ...

oldies oldies oldies..
hmm..
well..cant blame me...
IM A FANATIC OF OLDIESSSSS... :)

hmm..well..this week's so emotional.
tsk tsk tsk.

oh well...anyways..
had a good weekend at least..

hmm..had an enjoyable yet simple night on friday..
yeah..
saturday went to friend's hse to play and slack and play and slack..

today went to work..
my working partner of the day is darren..
luckily he smokes, or else it would be damn boring..
and so, as usual, hoping that time would give grace by moving at a double speed..
hmm..had a good talk with eng..
rubbish, as usual..hahas..and more tips though.. ;)
but he want a WHOLE DUCK as usual..T.T
duck dont have la eng..only dim sum from chinatown want? HAHA

well..all this makes me think lesser..
and had fun..
and at the same time, treasure people around me.. ;)

i have...

-really small and sore eyes
-sleepless night
-coughing
-abit of runny nose here and there
-diarrhea..
-injured heart

well..
i dont know what to say alr..
just that this few is just against me all the time..
this is what i feeel...
what a good new year start eh..

in the end..

~~LETTING GO~~ is still the only solution...

what to do?
cant bear to hurt her also..
yupp..
to me, respect is the most important thing in an relationship, followed by understanding..
so..after such a long time of thinking, finally made a decision..

well..
dont know whether is it a right decision..see how it goes lor..
but then,

relationship canNOTTTT be supported by just LOVE alone..

alot of factors are needed to be considered while in a relationship..
its not easy..yeah..
but i still prefer to be attached ar..
because im someone who is sentimental...

what to do...luck is just not being friendly with me..
sighhh..
all the memories..how painful it is to let it down..
how painful..
its a pain that even doctors can't cure it..

to her:
sorry i had to make this decision..i think of both of us before i really come to this conclusion..
like i've told u..since the first day we are together, i have been thinking about it till now..
there's no better solution i can think of to compromise all the barrier right infront of us..
the longer we drag, the painful it gets..
so yah..hope u really understand..this is something i dont want either..
if can, of course i don want this conclusion to happen..

so, this is the story of M and M..
sad to say, it ended so fast and sad..

M and M
started : 8th November 2008
ended : 5th Feb 2009

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

alot of things are running through my mind now..
don't know why..

hmm..donno whether to be happy or sad now..
it doesnt seems right for me to be happy..
and sad..
how?
i really felt lost this time..

great..
im sick this time round..
and i seriously don feel like getting better..
just continue being sick and sick and sick..
dunno la..

anyways..hope tml im feeling better so i can go out and have a little fun..?
sian..

IM SICK..

oh man..i felt so bad now..argh..
this morning was under the sun while at work..
lucky got hot water to support me, makes me feel better..but still..i felt as worse as ever..

i got:
- non-stop runny nose, seriously its like a tap.. T.T
- difficulty in breathing..
- not the usual coughing..

etc,etc and etc.

oh well, if worse then i have to seriously go to the doctors..
which is a PITA, otherwise, a.k.a Pain In The Ass.
come to think of it..its pain on my wallet also.. tsk tsk tsk..
oh well..
try panadol first then see how la.. :)

gotta go rest soon..nights! ;D