Love you, Love me.

merry christmas...! (belated)

wow..this holiday has been a life-changing one for me so far..
i just felt that something is not like me inside out..
but the good thing is, i felt that i've change for the better..
i felt that i am more sensitive to people around me..
and i wanted to change for the better..
so that i can be a good friend/boyfriend! :)
felt happy because im changing with God's influence..
His joy overfills my cup..
all the credits of these results goes to camp UNSHAKEABLE.
if i didnt go, im still the same old jiajun, no change at all..
the camp was great!
people cried, laughed, whined, smiled, but definitely not PISSED! :)
the verse for this camp is 2 Cor 4:8-9 :

"We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. "

this verse really explains alot, and serves as a form of encouragement to me. :)

christmas came and go in a blink..
BOX'MAS went by just yesterday night..
although the rain was a pain, but things still go smoothly and the rain did stopped on time. :)
christmas went by so fast that i could not even enjoy the season..
its a day that i would really look forward among the 365 days in a year..
hmmmm..oh wells..see how next year's christmas come eh?
pls don come and go so fast..i want to enjoy more..!!!! >.<''

as christmas passed, a new year would be coming soon..
starting to think of what's my resolution for the upcoming year..
hmmmm...nothing much for me i guess..
just that there are some things i would like it to be done..
things like :
1) finish up and pass with flying colours for my upcoming FYP in year 3..
2) pass my license..
3) commit myself more in church and the ministries i am in..
4) spend alot alot of quality time with my dearest (IMPORTANT)
5) buy a new guitar..
6) buy more clothes for myself as i dun usually shop for clothes..

well..something like that..
the reason why i list thing no. 4 as important because after next year im going NS...! T.T
i want more time with my dearest so that she won feel so lonely..
hahahas..
yeaps...

so fast..new year's coming..
soon, 10 years will be gone..
soon we all grow up with a families..
soon, kids grow up..
soon i'll leave this place..
hmmmm..
soon..
soon can be considered as a descriptive word for fast action..
but i felt that in real life, soon is considered as slow alr..
so you can imagine how fast paced real life is..

hmmm, i have roughly thought of what's my plan for next year, what about YOU? :)

hmmmm...

batam tml! hahas..excited of what is going to happen in the camp..hahas..
will have a heart of expectancy! :)

zoukout yesterday was a bomb! hahas.makes me feel like going clubbing..LOL
no la..the stage and everything is nice...the party was wild! :D
hahas..

was watching SEA games now..hahas!
but makes me think alot..about my past..
imagine i never stop my training..i really can have a opportunity to join the Games by now..
hahas..
oh well..i still chose to be free and have the life that i wanted to..hahas..
my dad wasn't as happy though..said it was wasted and everything..hahas..
felt wasted for me also..but then come to think of it..this is not the life that i expect myself to have though..and not the career i wanted to have also..
so yah..
so everything see this olympics and SEA games, i felt a sense of regret in a sense..but then..come to think of it, am happy of what i have now.. :)

of course im happy with what i have because i have my dearest with me..
rain or shine she is still there..
and we seem to realise that neither one of us seperate each other..
because we need each other more than the first day that we are together..
the bond just gets closer and closer. :)
sometimes it is good to be single, yes i agree, but TO AN EXTEND ONLY.
i really feel that being single can only attain a certain level of learning only..
it won grow, it won lose, just...constant.
but i feel that when you are attached, although we will have good and bad times, we still feel that its worth it to experience both.!
and that's where people really starts growing..
why people grow in love?
because GOD FIRST LOVED US.
and the greatest thing in this world is love, love and love.
love is powerful in a good and bad way.
it can lead people to death, or a fruitful life that anyone would love to have/acheive.

everytime i ask myself, is it worth it in the relationship?
and the answer always never fails me, because i know that cheryl and i can really go on for quite some time..
and she's the one. :)
love you baby! :D :D
PS: when she sees this she sure smile, and reply me " where got? " :D

ciaos~!