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alright..am here blogging on a sunday afternoon..hahas..
usually when i dont go work..i'll just slack at home..blogging about how's my life have been these few weeks..

hmm..these few weeks has been crazy for me and my dearest..
loads of ups and downs, the happy and sad etc..
hmmm..quarrels happens to every couple eh? but the main thing after all the quarrel is to patch back..
and the main thing when u are angry is NOT TO TALK..
the more you talk, the more you add oil on the fire..true?
sometimes when u are angry, you dont even seem to know what you are talking about..
all you know is to make the other party feel more pain than u..
so i will need to control and keep quiet whenever quarrel starts..
cool down first then explain and solve it eh? sounds like a better idea..

dearest..i'm sorry on my part that i flared up..i guess i had a rough time that period..
sometimes when things are not going our way, we feel like shit.
but after clearing all the shit, we must remember to learn from it.
we will not be like a dog, as dog will go back and eat it's own vomit after they puke.
love you my dearest... i love you now, tml, tml's tml and so many tml's that even the maths genius in this world cannot even calculate because it's INFINITE! :D
PS: btw, i'm not a small boy! :P

hmmm..yesterday at YA..had a life-changing service..
the word was good, the Praise and Worship was awesome..
on my knees everytime i reached the alter..in awe by his greatness..
Hosea was the preacher..
he preached this sentence that leaves a mark in my head, which is:
" If our earthly father can do so much for his son, what about our Heavenly Father? "
then he gave this very very very good example of this extremely famous pianist called Lang Lang..

Lang Lang is from China, came from a small poor village. he favourite is to play the piano. his father worked so hard just to make sure he gets to practise his piano, so his father found a piano teacher for him. as they are from a poor family, they had not enough money for transportation, therefore, his father will cycle him on a 3 hr journey ( to and fro) just to make sure that he got his shot on his dreams. even in the snow, he cycled LL to go practise. but this teacher teaches him for quite some time, and tell LL straight in the face that he has no talent at all in piano. but LL didnt gives up, his father found him another teacher to continue his practise. years later, he's performing at famous concert halls in china and US etc.. there's even one performance whereby he personally invited his dad along to play his er hu and LL plays his piano and performed together..

touching isnt it? you can imagine what our earthly father can do just to make sure that his son's dream is fulfilled..how about our Heavenly Father when he is so perfect????
this is a question to think about..

yesterday during service..something kept pestering me..
is called : SHARING AND CELL LEADER!
i was excited with this image.. and i'm willing to do anything for Him..
maybe this is the direction i need to and will be going from now on.. ;)
dearest signed up for the children worship leader's thingy..as they need worship leaders..
is like....WOW la..
after around 7 months being together..knowing her so much..
i think this is a breakthrough moment for her..
this is the first time i see her so enthu for Him..
this is the first time i see her so busy for Him..
this is the first time i see her so happy! :)
from what i know of her previous life before i came into it..it's nothing like this..
she has completely changed into more Godly person than she used to be!!!
so happy for her and i believed that He will used us both in our strengths eh?
Praise Him.. :D

last but not least, school is so busy! >.<
cant even breathe now that everything's cramping up.
i strongly learnt that you cannot do things last minute, because you might not know when something last min crops up. and you are DEAD.
see la..year 1 don't chiong CE points..now cramping up on year 2..when year 2 got PP to worry like mad..
imagine i cramp to year 3..my FYP is a gonner man..
must finish my CE asap!

and also my FTT haven even go take..took BTT alr..then go stagnant..
because of my school work and work..
wow..must go soon! :)
blogged till here then..

LOVE YOU DEAREST! :D:D:D:D:D:D

always my fault la?
i'm sick of quarreling alr.

things really aren't going my way this weeek.
PP rejected..cant buy what i want..gf PMS..
HOW TO SOLVE EVERYTHING?
this is the worse week i had for this year.
so impatient, so tempermental, so angry, so frustrated.
how?
i want to change also cannot la..

what a good start of the week..

first thing's first..
went to school this morning..woked up with a terrible stomachache..
this kind of thing seldom happens..so in the end i had no choice to just ta han all the way until school...
reached class, abit sian..
then the BOMB of the day just kills my day..
MY PP NEEDS TO REWORK!!!!
:(
other people's advisor also dun need to add all 3 analysis tool..
my advisor extra..i did SWOT..he continue to ask me to do PEST and Porter's 5..
i was like what the?!?! when i read that..
these are the points that he needs me to change..basically the whole thing?!

Please rework and include the below comments in Blue Text to differentiate the amendments :

1) Grammatical mistakes

2) Analysis must include its Strategic Plan against the competition and economic factors.

3) A competitive analysis of the industry with Primary and Secondary data shown in the Appendix and not only with bias data within the company.

4) Your own SWOT through thorough research from the Primary and Secondary data and not Bias SWOT from an SDC’s executive

5) Annual Report

6) PEST

7) Porter’s 5 Forces

8) Elaborate with evidences on your recommendations.

9) Conclusion should not be your recommendations

annual report? the reason why i didnt add it because i feel that the annual report is useless and i cant really say anything much from it..so put is just wasting time and energy..therefore, focusing on other areas...
all my friends under this advisor also need to rework...
so when you say my project's the one having problems, pls think whether does this advisor makes sense in the first place?!
everyone just anyhow do also accepted! why mine cannot just be accepted like the rest and continue on the posters?!?!??!!

this thing just seriously kills my day...
initially it was not the points that makes me feel so upset, but it's the advisor attitude and they way things work..
if it happens to me alone then i have nothing to say..but its not me alone ok!

sigh...
dont know why but it seems that i have been seriously affected by this..
so many points to rework on..so little time..the deadline's 22 Oct..which is next thurs?
ANTHONY SAM WALKER, I SERIOUSLY WILL REMEMBER UR FACE.

sigh..
" if we win, we praise God, if we lose, we praise God too..." - Facing The Giants
this is what the Eagles said before every match they went..
maybe i really should have this mindset too..
no matter i had a good day or bad day..He's still worthy of praise..
dear God, i just need Your help on this.because i really really do not know how to continue..
got this problem, got that problem..just cant seems to be able to handle it anything..
just need a simple nudge of Yours to give me the encouragement and wisdom to finish this problem..because i know You are always with me whenever and wherever i need You..
" For God so love the world, that He gave His only son. Those who believed in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life." - John 3:16
this sentence starts to makes sense..good thing about bible verses is that even a simple sentence like that can have alot of meanings..
God i just continue to believe in You, because i know Your plans will not harm me, but prosper me.

love you God, and of course not forgetting my dearest. :)

she is there for me when i need her today..
her response immediately was like : " never mind dear, i will be able to help you. :)"
the smiling face @ the end of her sentences really kinda change the feeling towards the problem..
hmmm..love her to the core!

i begin to realise that LOVE is a very big thing!
it's a big commitment..
and i started to realise the REAL link between me and her..
God really blesses us since our start of relationship..
and i can really see that dearest wants to commit to this relationship..
therefore, i cannot dissapoint her also..i also must commit to the fullest..
every single day, i came to realise that love is not just the feeling for the other party..
but also to help him/her willingly in anything..
be with him/her when either one of them needs help..
and so on and so forth..
all these seems small, but love is something that can be seen through small actions, rather than big ones like buying expensive stuffs for your partner..
love doesnt require alot of money, but alot of time, patience, care and concern. :)
even the richest guy in this world may not have these qualities..

blogged till here..

God's presence is definitely there tonight..

the feeling is like..
finally someone is there to help...
when all hopes are lost..something is there..
UNSHAKABLE is the word to describe the way He stood..
pulled me out of misery.. out of sooo much troubles i had this week...
in terms of spiritual attacks and emotional disorder...
He was there..
to comfort me...to help me..
tears just rolled down my cheeks continuously as the worship team sings this song..
this is the closest touch i felt from Him since..
not physically, but mentally..
but something like this that we cannot see nor feel is more powerful than what we felt..
way way way more powerful..nothing beats this..

during the alter call..surrendered all my problems, my worries to Him..
He accepted all without complains also..
immediately went to the alter..kneel down before Him..
tears continue to flow and flow..
it's so relief and touching to feel Him..
to know that He is there..to just hear me out..help me out later on..
just can't really control my emotions infront of anyone especially Him and just burst out crying..
so comforting that He is there..the only solution to all our problems..listening to it carefully..
the alter was like a 'crying wall' just now..
really felt that my worries remained at level 4 just now..

the song You Hold Me Now..
no weeping, no hurt or pain..
no suffering, You hold me now, You hold me now..
just makes me burst out crying before Him..
He will be the ending point of weepings, the hurt and the pain, the sufferings..
these few sentences makes me think about other people..
people in poverty..makes me realised how unimportant my problems are..
but He thinks that everyone's problem, be it small or big, will still be a problem to Him and He definitely will be there to comfort and to solve the situation..
therefore, i can really say that He is the King Of The Broken..
from the broken hearted..He slowly mends it to become whole again..
where can you find this kind of person on Earth?!

this is a song to reflect..

You Hold Me Now
Hillsong United

Verse 1:

On that day when I see 
All that You have for me 
When I see You face to face 
There surrounded by Your grace 
All my fears swept away 
In the light of Your embrace 
Where Your love is all I need 
And forever I am free 

PRE CHORUS 1: 

Where the streets are made of gold 
In Your presence healed and whole 
Let the songs of heaven rise to You alone 

CHORUS: 
 
No weeping no hurt or pain 
No suffering You hold me now You hold me now 
No darkness no sick or lame 
No hiding You hold me now You hold me now 

VERSE 2: 
In this life I will stand 
Through my joy and my pain 
Knowing there's a greater day 
There's a hope that never fails 
Where Your Name is lifted high 
And forever praises rise 
For the glory of Your Name 
I'm believing for the day 

PRE CHORUS 2: 
Where the wars and violence cease 
All creation lives in peace 
Let the songs of heaven 
Rise to You alone 

Bridge:

Your kingdom come
Your will be done
Here on earth as it is in heaven

He is always there to love us when everything fails..

Never Say Goodbye
Bon Jovi

As I sit in this smokey room
The night about to end
I pass my time with strangers
But this bottle's my only friend
Remember when we used to park
On Butler Street out in the dark
Remember when we lost the keys
And you lost more than that in my backseat baby
Remember how we used to talk
About busting out - we'd break their hearts
Together - forever
Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
You and me and my old friends
Hoping it would never end
Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
Holdin' on - we got to try
Holdin' on to never say goodbye
Remember days of skipping school
Racing cars and being cool
With a six pack and the radio
We didn't need no place to go
Remember at the prom that night
You and me we had a fight
But the band they played our favorite song
And I held you in my arms so strong
We danced so close
We danced so slow
And I swore I'd never let you go
Together - forever
Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
You and me and my old friends
Hoping it would never end
Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
Holdin' on - we got to try
Holdin' on to never say goodbye
I guess you'd say we used to talk
About busting out
We'd break their hearts
Together - forever

dedicated to dearest! :D <3<3

boring shyt man...

sian ar..dont know what im thinking now..
just....sian i guess..
partly's due to the re-opening of school..
not used to it ba..used to just hang around at home and work for quite some time..
holiday's 5 weeks and it passes by with a blink of an eye..
and the next thing you knew, its 2-3 more months before 2010 steps in...
that makes me wonder again..what did i do for my life?

i felt that i didnt do much though..
just work and study.....
the only thing that i improve myself on is to start learning driving..
thats all...
but the happy thing is that i'm with God once again..
happy to be in His presence..
the backslided period wasn't something good as you kinda feel lost everyday..
now that i've find my shepard again, it feels better...

boring shyt la..one more day to school re-opening..
school re-opening means = new friends = start all over to make new friends AGAIN = diaozz..
eh what to do la?
i only got 25 points for my L1R4..
if not this, then jiu ITE alr..
better than nothing lor..

life's sian for me right now..
sigh..wonder what can really cheer me up now?