read my mind.

2010-09-07T15:52:00.004+08:00

wow..its been so many donkey years since i last logged in into this place and blog..

hmmm..life's as usual..

test are happening now..studying on and off as usual man..

hmmmm..nothing much in my life now..but i know more is to come when holiday starts!

ahahahas..

was trying to find some pictures that explains LOVE between me and cheryl..

i was thinking so hard...! like what are the words that i can use when i type in the search box..

was trying words like " partnership", "companionship", "couples" etc etc etc. but no good results came...

then i realised that actually i had the picture already.

every single photo that me and my dearest took explains LOVE this word.. :)

hahahas.

recently we just had our 1 year and half months monthniversary.

it was like..........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... because we had to study..

hahas..

but dearest and i know that any random day can be our anniversary, as long as we both love each other.. :D

my dearest so understanding! LOVE her to bits.

one funny thing that makes me so interested in her is that she still have her childhood mindset, despite being a little mature at times..hahahas..

she did things like made me promise to bring her go Jurong Birdpark..sooooooo cute!

LOL.

she is so baby-ish. hahahahahahahaas. i like. :D

alrights! gtg!

counting down...26 MORE DAYS TO MELBOURNE! :D

i will miss my dearest.. :(

2010-07-13T14:53:00.002+08:00

DASHING! :D

oh wells..
*breathe in*.........
*COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH*!!!!!

so you can roughly estimate how long i did not blogged till now..

life is getting more and more like a routine and i seriously don like it..
every week is just not right for me now..
its just school, home, work, church..
outside might seems okay for me..
but inside its like.. WHAT THE HELL
but commitments are still commitments right?
so its not something that im suppose to complain about..
but still, humans do have emotions and i rather vent it here rather than or anyone to make things worse..

welll...
time do pass at lightning speed.
without a doubt, im at the end of semester 1 for year 3.
its like....WHOA!
its been a long time since i met cheryl and everyone else? hahas.
but like nothing much change since year 1 up till now..

talking about time..
cheryl and i clearly forgot our anniversary for this month! LOL
its like...diaozzzzzzz.
hahahhas
btw...its our 1 year and 4 months anniversary! :)

thats all for now...
byeee

2010-04-26T12:32:00.002+08:00

hmmmm...

was wondering why my blog's url is changed to " kingdomof-comfort.bs.com"..
initially, was in love with the song Kingdom Of Comfort, thats the reason why.
but slowly after time, then i just realise that this is the place that im comfortable with to share my thoughts down. hmmm..

school has started for a couple of weeks and i must say that the stress has started building its own tower inside me alr..
piles and piles of stress slowly joins in like a queue and i must must stress that it is not time for me to be a slacker anymore!
initially thought that 3rd Year's nothing much, just like 1st and 2nd year.
but the feel is so different from the first day of school!
the moment i got to school, checked my mail. guess what?
FYP advisor sent a meeting request to my email alr.
shucks. they don even give me the 1st day of school a good one. phew...
but still handling ok for most of the stuffs like school, relationship, other commitments etc....for now.

but on top of all these heavy issues, i had some light issues too!
last wed just passed my long awaited FTT!
know why its long?
cux i've booked it since the week before CNY. and the test was last week, so yah..

the funny thing is,
i didnt even study much for the test at all!
the first one i mugged like hell but failed,
the second one i slack like hell but passed.
is it lucky or what?
NOPE!
it's God's hands moving around my head, blessing me with all the things that i wanted.
and all thanks to Him, i literally pass BTT and FTT like nobody's business.
i know its Him, because i know that i'm gonna pass before i went and took it

well, now that i've passed. i need to find instructor!
and money's the problem again... -.-''
nvm..lazy to talk about monetary issues again...zzzzzzzzzz..
hmmmm...just hoping that i can pull through all the lesson's fees and my trip to tioman..

seriously hoping that i can go tioman cux from what i've heard, my FYP 1st assessment is on eith 16th, 17th, or 18th june! :(
my trip is from 18th - 20th june..
and 18th june is the critical date for me.
so for now, im just praying hard all the time, hoping that my assessment is on either 16 or 17th so as not to clash with my trip.
PLS PLS PLS! i just don wana stay in singapore.
singapore is T-O-O B-O-R-I-N-G.

till here..
ciaos.

2010-04-09T11:47:00.003+08:00

this is the 1st ever bangs i saw my dear had!

cute right? omt! haahahahas..
this is taken when we are on the floating platform watching the NDP rehearsal 2009..
she looks super-ly like a small girl..ahaha.. *pinch cheeks*

well..my dearest keep asking me to blog and so here i am..sitting down..typing my thoughts into a BIG white box with no text limit..hmmmm...

these few weeks has been ok and well for me...didnt really work much..most of my time were spent on my class BBQ, chalet, outings and everything..and did spend alot of time with dearest and her family..hahahas..
hmmm..was really starting to feel that the holiday was great when................

POOF!

the holiday's ending..
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
oh well..
3rd year liaos..must buck up..and next year ARMY LO!
lol...fast eh? the youngest in my family is finally gg army soon! hahahahas
i dun wana go back school! so borings. everyday's routine the same.
meeting 1, break, meeting 2, longer break, meeting 3, go home.

well..for now..just enjoy my last moments of happiness ba..hahahahas..
nothing to blog tho..hahas..so i think i just stop here..

PS: DEAR, I SERIOUSLY WANA GO DIVING OR CRUISE BEFORE MY NS JUST IN CASE U DONT KNOW IF NOT I GO NS SURE DAMN SIAN ONE.
hahahahahahhahahhahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahsh

2010-03-10T00:02:00.002+08:00

by the end of this holiday, it would be mine..!!!!!! (one of them)
wahahas..
i just realised i kept saying that i wanted to buy a shade for 2 years alr!
but then i procrasinate and buy other stuffs... -.-''
see..this is what procrasination can do to u if u dont discipline urself to focus on what is important!
yeaps..
must get it..
my eyes are getting more and more vulnerable to the glares from the sun on the water during evening time..
ITS BURNING!!!!
so actually must get it soon..

blog till here..BYE!

favourite phrase i gave my dearest this week : you are my one and only baby, smell like flower, taste like honey. HAHAHAHA

2010-02-27T12:51:00.002+08:00

wow..

time passes so damn fast until the extend that i didn't even update my dear's age on the profile column of my blog..hahas..
but..UPDATED NOW! :D

come to realised it, this year's gonna be the last year me and dearest's age is gonna start off with the number 1!
next year onwards its 2 alr..hahas.old old old..

hmmm..but saying all these..im rather excited..
because i've always wanted to know what will i become in my future?
yupp..so kinda looking forward to the future...!!

time passes so fast until the extend that....

6 MORE DAYS TO OUR 1ST ANNIVERSARY!

fast right? hahahas..
one year came in an blink of an eye..
and this one year, we've been through so much together!
hahas..
dearest, love you okays! :) there will be more years to come.hahas..

these few weeks are kinda busy..with loads of stuffs going on on the month of February..
things like..
1. Dearest's birthday
i hanged out with her family to have dinner as a form of celebration for her..a mini one tho..
then we had 2 outings..
first is to go and eat smth nice then followed by movie..
the other one was a ZOO OUTING! :D
hahas..
PS: sorry dear that i did not get a present for you, but hope you really enjoyed both of the outings.. :)
my dearest is like a small girl la! hahas..so excited when she sees those animals..hahas..so cute! :)
whenever she do cute stuffs, i just feel like pinching her fat chubby cute cheeks! WAHAHAHA.
im a saddist, i know. HAHA. but on this situation only. ;)
its kinda good thing and bad thing for dearest also..
this year turning 19, and the staffs from theatre still will ask her is she 16 years old when watching a NC 16 show..
good thing is, she really looks young.
bad thing is, people cant recognise her real age.
i dunno why is it a bad thing, but i feel its a bad issue, HAHA.

2.CNY
usual hangout place on the 1st day : grandma house
this year's good! the ang pao is like WHOA! HAHA
got a few addition to the amount of ang paos me and my brother got over at grandma's house as some of my big cousins are married..so yah..
this year's awesome la! with dearest's families also! hahahs.
they super kind can.. :) gave me more than what i expected! hahahas.
thanks dear and your family yah?
hahas.i went one of the visiting with dearest family to her auntie house..hahas..
afterall, i would say that this year's CNY is way better than last year's..
why?
because the atmosphere is definitely there..the gathering of family..my family..other families..
the real fun of CNY is there for the first 3 days of course..
felt like the old and 'original' CNY..
the one we used to felt when we were super young.. :D

hahas..
so i'll just blogged until here then.. :)

2010-01-31T19:53:00.003+08:00

OUR SWEEEEET MOMENTS~!
PS:THE BOTTOM LEFT PHOTO LOOKS LIKE OUR WEDDING PHOTO! HAHAHS.CAN'T WAIT TO TAKE WITH CHERYL CHUA JIA YAN! :D

HAHA!
finally there's something nice to talk about in my blog after a few posts of some emo posts..hahas
yesterday was a saturday, but there's no YA service, instead we have a seminar @ Church Of Good Sheperd..
hahas..the seminar was good, and surprisingly, i do manage to take and absorb alot of things during this seminar and i really can focus! :D good job JJ. :D
hmmm..it was a more 'traditional' church i would say, and the in-charge of the church wasn't quite happy ( i think ) when the YAs are fidgiting and eating sweets during the seminar..
although we didnt disturb the whole church, but they seems not to get used to our culture tho..hahas..
nevertheless, we are the same body of Christ and must stay united..! hahas..
they were kind and they welcomed us..

after that dearest and i went for my bro's birthday party! HAHA..
and guess what?
they started to make fire since 5pm and by the time i reached (7 plus), they still haven set up the fire! LOLOLOLOL.
but then i actioned to help, because i've started fire before, in the end the fire still haven started until my bro's friend came to added some help finally..
lol..so the whole fire started only at 8 plus where alot of my bro's friend came alr! LOL.
SO EMBARASSING..!
but the whole night was a good time for my brother though..
although he never say much, never show much, but can see that he enjoyed his time alot la.
hahas..
HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY MY ELDER BROTHER!

after that dearest and i stayed over with my elder brother and his gf..hahas
not even one of my bro's friend stayed over lor.. -.-''
but it was still fun la..talked to lydia(bro's gf) more than ever..hahahas..
it was a get-together night..
the next day we woke up..had breakfast..and my bro and lydia went home le..
but dearest and i WENT ESCAPE! :D:D:D:D

but then HOR..
not much games we could play..SERIOUSLY..
is like SHITZXZXZXZ man..
lucky the admission ticket is free..if not i seriously waste my $17.70 just to go in and see alot of trees and bushes.. -.-''
dearest and i still managed to have fun and get wet at the same time! HAHA.
we also won some of those mini-games booths and dearest got home a colourful dolphin and a wide-grinning gorilla plush toy..HAHA..

after all the wash-up..we went to eat and everything..
then we go arcade and have some fun! HAHA.
like kids arh we all..LOL..
then we took neoprints! :D hahas..
and we were so sotong la..the whole neoprint machine is like in japanese language and u cannot even understand a single thing so dearest and i just anyhow click on something..hahhahas..
but it came out nicely! :D
the photo's on top FYI..LOL

dearest really had a good time..can see that the people around me so happy..
this is the first few times i felt this kind of peace and inner joy in my heart..to see the people around me so happy and blissed..
i'm starting to understand why God wants to ask a rich guy(i cant remember who) to gave up his fortune and everything to follow Him..

because the things that God wants us to experience is something that money will never ever ever be able to buy.. :)

dearest, thanks for the time and i hope u really enjoyed your weekends this week.. :)
LOVE YOU! :)

2010-01-17T21:27:00.002+08:00

MISERY.

just came back from a rather long and superrrr HOT day of work..
it's always good to go home after work..even the air in the atmosphere smells and feels different..
came home and online..as usual..clear up emails..play fb..and now got chance to really pen my thoughts down into something comfortable.. :)

hmmm..
work was okays..was unusually quiet today..just felt that too many new people came in..
no time and no chance to talk to them also..kinda felt abit left out since the older ones which i always talk to, talks to the new people now..
sometimes really felt that i cannot clique with alot of people..
oh well..
like i always say to cheryl, be INDEPENDANT..
i don want to be like a tortoise, always have to carry a shell behind and walk..
must learn to be like an eagle, can fly freely, and can spot and catches their own prey fast.
yeaps..
so today's work was quiet all the way..
Eng knew i was kinda quiet today..so he brought Luke to my tower to accompany me..
although he nv says, but i really think that he take cares of me alot..
he knows people inside out..so im really grateful that he steps in my life to give me so much learning experience and stretch my knowledge about how this world can really be..

REALISTIC IS THE WORD.

well..
shouldn't talk much on that issue..since it's a long one and im not interested to talk about right now..

my parents sold off my current flat last last thursday..
its a confirm thing if im not wrong..
so our current plan was to move to Lorong Ah Soo..its right opp Paya Lebar Methodist School..
kinda familiar with the place since we used to stay there before we move to serangoon (current house), and my sec school is nearby also..
now we have to move back.. -.-''
hmmm..no objections for me of course..
initially i thought it was a good thing for my parents and for the whole family..
but when things are getting more REAL in a sense that it's gonna happen (since my parents always say about moving house but didn't do anything), my brother gave quite a strong objection when my parents initially suggests the idea to him..
mind you, it's just a SUGGESTION..and he flared up..
quarrels after quarrels almost every night..left me quiet and thinking alone in my room..
how to help in the situation?
like any typical chinese family, they will stereotype that 'the youngest has the LEAST stand in the house', so how can i help?
every night quarrel and quarrel and quarrel..
i just listen at one corner..feeling why this family is so negative now?
parents backslided so many years, don't even have the initiative to really go back to God.
brother's on and off in his church..
that's the reason why i always listen to my parents..to really let them know that i'm still following God's footstep strongly and really want to be their mini role model in this situation..
but i dun think they bother anyways..
imagine your family every night at around 11pm-12am quarrel so damn loud as if the walls are sound-proof, how do you feel?
imagine after every quarrel, your mum cries, how do you feel?
imagine your mum was looking at those old photos and say that we were so cute when we were young, and started weeping in tears when she says that what happens when we all grown up, how do you feel?
it's so heartwrenching to see my mum like that..
she's the person i respected most..and not my dad..seriously..
sigh..
so this is what's happening to my family now..

my family has been so 'encouraging' these few weeks really makes me a weaker person in terms of spiritually and mentally.
my relationship with dearest hasn't been good also.
i just dunno why, but it seems that i can't do things right when i'm with her..
will just make her unhappy and everything..in the end everyone just ended off badly..
i just felt so lousy..
in the end i cannot take it and just really broke down infront of dearest yesterday during the bus trip home..
i felt the overwhelming misery in my heart, in my mind..
i just duno what to do and how to do it..

but God has been so faithful that it really makes me weep during the praise and worship yesterday..
He is always so patient and caring for me..
even though everything seems so bad, His light shine so brightly..
imagine a light bulb lights up in a total black room..
He's the hope i've got..
im starting to get so dependant on Him..which is good..

but after all this crappings..
i still feel so lucky..
the people in Haiti was so poor thing..an unexpected earthquake just came and crushes everyone's heart..
those people that hearts are broken have 2 kinds :
1. people who are dead
2. people who survive
either ways, their hearts are crushed.
felt so much compassion for them.
i'm gonna move more to the compassion side.imagine you really put a smile on their face. it's enough alr.

thats all.

2010-01-14T23:40:00.002+08:00

i feel that the shaking has already begun since dunno how long ago..
but i believe that dearest and i can pull it through with God's nudge in our lives..
so dearest, to encourage you to just push on for our relationship, i really wan to encourage you in something that i am confident of and is music..

Kings Of Leon - Use Somebody

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, fill the places I can't reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me, somebody

Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I've been roaming around,
Always looking down at all I see

to my dearest..

love you dear..you know i always do..and i believe that you are always there for me..
like wise i will do the same for you..because that's what couple really for..being there for each other..backing each other up..
you know that i could use somebody and that you dear..
never give up okay..we will persevere and breakthrough the difficult times together..
to prove that our relationship is a tough and is a 'house' that is built on solid rocks and not on sinking sand..
someone like you and God, dear i'm blissed..more than happy to have you guys in my life..
dear...this is the first love letter i'm writing to you now and i believe that there are more to come..
be encouraged and let's stick together..'when 2 becomes 1' rule applies all the time..
so we make sure no one falls out ya?
love you cheryl..love you one and only dearest..no one else could really replace your position in my heart..
nothing could express my love for you..because my heart has been roaming around..
and found the 'somebody' that locks in my heart.. :)
love you dear..

2009-12-27T19:24:00.007+08:00

merry christmas...! (belated)

wow..this holiday has been a life-changing one for me so far..
i just felt that something is not like me inside out..
but the good thing is, i felt that i've change for the better..
i felt that i am more sensitive to people around me..
and i wanted to change for the better..
so that i can be a good friend/boyfriend! :)
felt happy because im changing with God's influence..
His joy overfills my cup..
all the credits of these results goes to camp UNSHAKEABLE.
if i didnt go, im still the same old jiajun, no change at all..
the camp was great!
people cried, laughed, whined, smiled, but definitely not PISSED! :)
the verse for this camp is 2 Cor 4:8-9 :

"We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. "

this verse really explains alot, and serves as a form of encouragement to me. :)

christmas came and go in a blink..
BOX'MAS went by just yesterday night..
although the rain was a pain, but things still go smoothly and the rain did stopped on time. :)
christmas went by so fast that i could not even enjoy the season..
its a day that i would really look forward among the 365 days in a year..
hmmmm..oh wells..see how next year's christmas come eh?
pls don come and go so fast..i want to enjoy more..!!!! >.<''

as christmas passed, a new year would be coming soon..
starting to think of what's my resolution for the upcoming year..
hmmmm...nothing much for me i guess..
just that there are some things i would like it to be done..
things like :
1) finish up and pass with flying colours for my upcoming FYP in year 3..
2) pass my license..
3) commit myself more in church and the ministries i am in..
4) spend alot alot of quality time with my dearest (IMPORTANT)
5) buy a new guitar..
6) buy more clothes for myself as i dun usually shop for clothes..

well..something like that..
the reason why i list thing no. 4 as important because after next year im going NS...! T.T
i want more time with my dearest so that she won feel so lonely..
hahahas..
yeaps...

so fast..new year's coming..
soon, 10 years will be gone..
soon we all grow up with a families..
soon, kids grow up..
soon i'll leave this place..
hmmmm..
soon..
soon can be considered as a descriptive word for fast action..
but i felt that in real life, soon is considered as slow alr..
so you can imagine how fast paced real life is..

hmmm, i have roughly thought of what's my plan for next year, what about YOU? :)

2009-12-13T19:34:00.002+08:00

hmmmm...

batam tml! hahas..excited of what is going to happen in the camp..hahas..
will have a heart of expectancy! :)

zoukout yesterday was a bomb! hahas.makes me feel like going clubbing..LOL
no la..the stage and everything is nice...the party was wild! :D
hahas..

was watching SEA games now..hahas!
but makes me think alot..about my past..
imagine i never stop my training..i really can have a opportunity to join the Games by now..
hahas..
oh well..i still chose to be free and have the life that i wanted to..hahas..
my dad wasn't as happy though..said it was wasted and everything..hahas..
felt wasted for me also..but then come to think of it..this is not the life that i expect myself to have though..and not the career i wanted to have also..
so yah..
so everything see this olympics and SEA games, i felt a sense of regret in a sense..but then..come to think of it, am happy of what i have now.. :)

of course im happy with what i have because i have my dearest with me..
rain or shine she is still there..
and we seem to realise that neither one of us seperate each other..
because we need each other more than the first day that we are together..
the bond just gets closer and closer. :)
sometimes it is good to be single, yes i agree, but TO AN EXTEND ONLY.
i really feel that being single can only attain a certain level of learning only..
it won grow, it won lose, just...constant.
but i feel that when you are attached, although we will have good and bad times, we still feel that its worth it to experience both.!
and that's where people really starts growing..
why people grow in love?
because GOD FIRST LOVED US.
and the greatest thing in this world is love, love and love.
love is powerful in a good and bad way.
it can lead people to death, or a fruitful life that anyone would love to have/acheive.

everytime i ask myself, is it worth it in the relationship?
and the answer always never fails me, because i know that cheryl and i can really go on for quite some time..
and she's the one. :)
love you baby! :D :D
PS: when she sees this she sure smile, and reply me " where got? " :D

ciaos~!

2009-12-01T13:41:00.003+08:00

hahas.this will brighten up your day.

2009-11-29T16:52:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOSH! how cute is my dearest?! :D
hahahahahas. btw, this was taken when we were in Gentings, with dearest's family. hahahas
its like so long luh..during national day this year! :)
memories memories memories..

hahahas..
times really zoom like how Edward runs man..SERIOUSLY!
its like we will be in december say..2 DAYS TIME?!!!!
sia la..oh well..DECEMEBER IS GREAT! :)
1. YA camp @ BATAM BATAM BATAM!!!!! ICHIBAN! LOL
2. SANTA CLAUSE IS COMING TO TOWN! (christmas)

actually, every year i just look forward to december..hahas..
mainly just because christmas and new year is coming..hahas.
and when christmas is about to come, i had the feeling like it's gonna snow soon!! LOL
but i know it won happen, not at singapore. serious.
people say singapore is like a little red dot.imagine covered with white snow?
its like pimple with acne cream on top. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
true?
nevertheless, i still love december.

hahas..school's okay..everything's okay..
just felt that i have not enough time with dearest lehs..
although we see each other very often, but we don spend alot of quality time together like we used to..
hmmm..yeaps..
we should go out soon my dear! :)
love you baby. <3

oh..recently something has been a super hyper thing for me..and thats...

TWILIGHT!

see la..
stupid bird..
bring me go watch new moon when i know nuts about the whole storyline..
now im hung into it..
at first i thought its like a fairytale love story thingy for those girls to siao on guys on the movies..
but once i started reading and when i watch the movie, it's something else! LOL
the storyline was quite okay, and you just wanted to know what's going to happen until you finish reading the whole book or finish watching the movie.
but the bad thing, they always stop at the BEST PART! right? right? right?
hahahas.i guess this is the strategy the authors/directors used to affirm their films or books.
making sure that people will still come back for more. hahahahahahas

okay la..blogged until here..
till then...~!

2009-11-26T14:43:00.002+08:00

in fact, i love to take formal shots, because i feel that they are the nicest type of photo you can have..its like so neat and tidy..
i especially love this one..the first and only photo with dearest in formal suit @ 40th EAOG Anniversary Dinner..

time really flies until the extend that i cant even remember how many anniversaries i had with my dearest..
and the upcoming one (9th months) is like next saturday?!?!
things are still going up and down between us..and i felt that both of our emotions are rather unstable..
we quarrel because of something small, trying to figure out something to solve the issue and instead of solving we quarrel more etc..
i really think that these few weeks are the times whereby Satan is shaking everyone off from God's hands, and personally, i felt that relationship is one of the factors that he is shaking me.
see, the way satan attacks is very straightforward, usually is the same.
relationship is a big issue to me, therefore, im having a tough spiritual battle these few weeks with dearest..
she is having nightmares at night..cannot sleep..
prayer can help..but it keeps coming back to test her..
so is like everyone is having a hard period right before the camp Unshakable.
nonetheless, God is still very loving..
in cell, that is where i really felt the warmth of a family..
where everyone focus on the same person, on the same goal..
how cool is that?

nothing's on for me now that my PP is done and PASSED..
just need to signed myself up for FTT PLS.! its like freaking 3 months-to-be since i took my BTT..
i scared i forget everything and im behind schedule (according to me own personal plan)..
yupp..
just looking forward to the day that im going YA camp..
BATAM! never been there before..but i heard the water's good and clear..
LOVE THOSE PLACES! :D

PS: for those who are down during these few weeks, recite this lyrics from Healer into ur heart.

" Nothing is impossible for You (x3), You hold my world in Your hands.."

dearest, i really do love you. i want us to grow together. let this period be the time to learn and not to demoralise/upset each other, instead we should encourage and cheer each other up. i will try to do my best in my part, hoping that our relationship can be a better one, and a relationship where people can really use us as a model to learn from us..

CHERYL CHUA 我爱死你了!!!!!! :)

2009-11-15T21:43:00.005+08:00

the rainbow always comes out right after the storm.. :)

sunday..rest/working day..
so today decided to stay at home and do poster...
do so long..only did abit of the project..HAHA..
still working on it...

look something like that..

well...
nothing much i guess..look like a normal poster lor...
yupp..
but there are few points i decided to do..
like "theme" it..i thought it would be better for the poster to have the same theme as the company i'm doing..it boosts up the presentation tho...thats what i felt..
since sentosa's logo is orange colour, so i decided to add orange and the sand colour in my poster as it kinda matches and looks nice with it..yupp..
pictures are a must to give a colourful and entertaining presentation though..
so i choose those pictures that are photoshopped in the internet, so it makes it looks nice..
its under construction still though..my poster that is..so..yupp...

few days ago i was in school..
as usual..dear will complain.." im so bored " over and over again..
until im used to it..hahas..because actually she did that for the whole sem 1 tooo..
so HAD TO play some msn games with her to help her relief of her bored-ness..
msn games nowadays are getting better and better i must say!
the bowling was kinda fun..!
this is the moment we had while we are playing..

kinda lame..but..well..dear likes lame stuff..hahahahahahahahs..
oh yah..yesterday's whole day in church was just awesome! :)
attended CE class was fun and i finally got the gift of tongues!
starting is like u wan to say something..then u just start mumbling voices..
very hard to describe eh..
but i'm happy to have it.. :D praise God. :)

things are starting to turn around...and i realised that God gave us bad times is because He really want us to learn and grow into a stronger person..
how good is a God when he just spoon feeds you?
God is someone who wants us to learn through experience, so that the things we learn became valuable to us, instead of spoon-feeding us eh?
there are alot of things that i have yet to know and learn..
and i want to learn more, through Him..
although bad times really do SUCK..and seriously i say..SUCK... S-U-C-K...
but in the end we still must pull through and finish what we started off.. :)
there is only 1 life for everyone, i want to live mine full of experience, what about you? :) :)
something to think about..

UT 1 is ending soon, following up by UT 2..
and i have yet to clear these few things that kinda cost me a bomb?!

1.YA camp..i've saved like $45/$210?!?!?!?!?!
2. FTT $6, if pass, with PDL $20 plus plus..and prac lessons : every 1 1/2 hrs, $30 plus dollars.

how how? god seriously need to help me this time man.. ahhhhh!

thats all for now..
DEAREST! love you alrights. :)
there are tougher times ahead, and we will break through it together. :)
<3>

times are bad..but come to think of it..things are still good.. :)

2009-11-12T13:59:00.002+08:00

back to blogged...finally!!

in fact, i do not feel the urge to blog about anything at all..because i really got nothing to say much.

life is as usual, up and downs are definitely here..
just that i feel that the downs are more than ups for now..
busy with school, church and work..
yeaps..

had a steamboat outing with my cell mates again..
was really fun staying with them..
as least, they are the ones that make sure that i'm still in God's hands..
their presence assured me of His presence, telling me that God really is around to help..
thats the reason why i love my cell so much.. :)
alvin posted this question while we were eating like pigs : " what you guys want to see/do in 2 years time?"
although the funny people will talk rubbish and jokes..hahas..
but i've decided to implant myself in worship ministry and being a cell leader!
this is the first few times i've made a decision so clearly and confident without having the mindset of failing it.
how good is God? :)

talking about commiting, DISTRACTIONS and TEMPTATIONS came in the way.
seriously, i'm sick and tired of falling into the trap alr..seriously..
we're gonna break the chains, break the silence and move forward because now is the time for us to shine!

the downs in ur life is really suckish, especially those things that you really care about falls into the DOWN area instead of the UP.
thats all i can say.
sighhhhhhhhh....
i dont know how to solve it/improve the situation.

we humans seriously need god's help.
without Him, how are we gonna survive seriously?

" How could I live without You?
How could i survive..without Your Love..without Your Touch..?
You're the one that Heals me, that cleanses my heart...
And sets me free... "

i finally understand why people cannot stop praising him because he is so awesome that NOTHING can be compared to him.
and so, we are standing in awe of Him, in awe of His presence and power.

gotta gooo...

2009-10-25T15:04:00.003+08:00

blog blog blog...

alright..am here blogging on a sunday afternoon..hahas..
usually when i dont go work..i'll just slack at home..blogging about how's my life have been these few weeks..

hmm..these few weeks has been crazy for me and my dearest..
loads of ups and downs, the happy and sad etc..
hmmm..quarrels happens to every couple eh? but the main thing after all the quarrel is to patch back..
and the main thing when u are angry is NOT TO TALK..
the more you talk, the more you add oil on the fire..true?
sometimes when u are angry, you dont even seem to know what you are talking about..
all you know is to make the other party feel more pain than u..
so i will need to control and keep quiet whenever quarrel starts..
cool down first then explain and solve it eh? sounds like a better idea..

dearest..i'm sorry on my part that i flared up..i guess i had a rough time that period..
sometimes when things are not going our way, we feel like shit.
but after clearing all the shit, we must remember to learn from it.
we will not be like a dog, as dog will go back and eat it's own vomit after they puke.
love you my dearest... i love you now, tml, tml's tml and so many tml's that even the maths genius in this world cannot even calculate because it's INFINITE! :D
PS: btw, i'm not a small boy! :P

hmmm..yesterday at YA..had a life-changing service..
the word was good, the Praise and Worship was awesome..
on my knees everytime i reached the alter..in awe by his greatness..
Hosea was the preacher..
he preached this sentence that leaves a mark in my head, which is:
" If our earthly father can do so much for his son, what about our Heavenly Father? "
then he gave this very very very good example of this extremely famous pianist called Lang Lang..

Lang Lang is from China, came from a small poor village. he favourite is to play the piano. his father worked so hard just to make sure he gets to practise his piano, so his father found a piano teacher for him. as they are from a poor family, they had not enough money for transportation, therefore, his father will cycle him on a 3 hr journey ( to and fro) just to make sure that he got his shot on his dreams. even in the snow, he cycled LL to go practise. but this teacher teaches him for quite some time, and tell LL straight in the face that he has no talent at all in piano. but LL didnt gives up, his father found him another teacher to continue his practise. years later, he's performing at famous concert halls in china and US etc.. there's even one performance whereby he personally invited his dad along to play his er hu and LL plays his piano and performed together..

touching isnt it? you can imagine what our earthly father can do just to make sure that his son's dream is fulfilled..how about our Heavenly Father when he is so perfect????
this is a question to think about..

yesterday during service..something kept pestering me..
is called : SHARING AND CELL LEADER!
i was excited with this image.. and i'm willing to do anything for Him..
maybe this is the direction i need to and will be going from now on.. ;)
dearest signed up for the children worship leader's thingy..as they need worship leaders..
is like....WOW la..
after around 7 months being together..knowing her so much..
i think this is a breakthrough moment for her..
this is the first time i see her so enthu for Him..
this is the first time i see her so busy for Him..
this is the first time i see her so happy! :)
from what i know of her previous life before i came into it..it's nothing like this..
she has completely changed into more Godly person than she used to be!!!
so happy for her and i believed that He will used us both in our strengths eh?
Praise Him.. :D

last but not least, school is so busy! >.<
cant even breathe now that everything's cramping up.
i strongly learnt that you cannot do things last minute, because you might not know when something last min crops up. and you are DEAD.
see la..year 1 don't chiong CE points..now cramping up on year 2..when year 2 got PP to worry like mad..
imagine i cramp to year 3..my FYP is a gonner man..
must finish my CE asap!

and also my FTT haven even go take..took BTT alr..then go stagnant..
because of my school work and work..
wow..must go soon! :)
blogged till here then..

LOVE YOU DEAREST! :D:D:D:D:D:D

2009-10-16T10:28:00.002+08:00

always my fault la?
i'm sick of quarreling alr.

things really aren't going my way this weeek.
PP rejected..cant buy what i want..gf PMS..
HOW TO SOLVE EVERYTHING?
this is the worse week i had for this year.
so impatient, so tempermental, so angry, so frustrated.
how?
i want to change also cannot la..

2009-10-12T20:26:00.003+08:00

what a good start of the week..

first thing's first..
went to school this morning..woked up with a terrible stomachache..
this kind of thing seldom happens..so in the end i had no choice to just ta han all the way until school...
reached class, abit sian..
then the BOMB of the day just kills my day..
MY PP NEEDS TO REWORK!!!!
:(
other people's advisor also dun need to add all 3 analysis tool..
my advisor extra..i did SWOT..he continue to ask me to do PEST and Porter's 5..
i was like what the?!?! when i read that..
these are the points that he needs me to change..basically the whole thing?!

Please rework and include the below comments in Blue Text to differentiate the amendments :

1) Grammatical mistakes

2) Analysis must include its Strategic Plan against the competition and economic factors.

3) A competitive analysis of the industry with Primary and Secondary data shown in the Appendix and not only with bias data within the company.

4) Your own SWOT through thorough research from the Primary and Secondary data and not Bias SWOT from an SDC’s executive

5) Annual Report

6) PEST

7) Porter’s 5 Forces

8) Elaborate with evidences on your recommendations.

9) Conclusion should not be your recommendations

annual report? the reason why i didnt add it because i feel that the annual report is useless and i cant really say anything much from it..so put is just wasting time and energy..therefore, focusing on other areas...
all my friends under this advisor also need to rework...
so when you say my project's the one having problems, pls think whether does this advisor makes sense in the first place?!
everyone just anyhow do also accepted! why mine cannot just be accepted like the rest and continue on the posters?!?!??!!

this thing just seriously kills my day...
initially it was not the points that makes me feel so upset, but it's the advisor attitude and they way things work..
if it happens to me alone then i have nothing to say..but its not me alone ok!

sigh...
dont know why but it seems that i have been seriously affected by this..
so many points to rework on..so little time..the deadline's 22 Oct..which is next thurs?
ANTHONY SAM WALKER, I SERIOUSLY WILL REMEMBER UR FACE.

sigh..
" if we win, we praise God, if we lose, we praise God too..." - Facing The Giants
this is what the Eagles said before every match they went..
maybe i really should have this mindset too..
no matter i had a good day or bad day..He's still worthy of praise..
dear God, i just need Your help on this.because i really really do not know how to continue..
got this problem, got that problem..just cant seems to be able to handle it anything..
just need a simple nudge of Yours to give me the encouragement and wisdom to finish this problem..because i know You are always with me whenever and wherever i need You..
" For God so love the world, that He gave His only son. Those who believed in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life." - John 3:16
this sentence starts to makes sense..good thing about bible verses is that even a simple sentence like that can have alot of meanings..
God i just continue to believe in You, because i know Your plans will not harm me, but prosper me.

love you God, and of course not forgetting my dearest. :)

she is there for me when i need her today..
her response immediately was like : " never mind dear, i will be able to help you. :)"
the smiling face @ the end of her sentences really kinda change the feeling towards the problem..
hmmm..love her to the core!

i begin to realise that LOVE is a very big thing!
it's a big commitment..
and i started to realise the REAL link between me and her..
God really blesses us since our start of relationship..
and i can really see that dearest wants to commit to this relationship..
therefore, i cannot dissapoint her also..i also must commit to the fullest..
every single day, i came to realise that love is not just the feeling for the other party..
but also to help him/her willingly in anything..
be with him/her when either one of them needs help..
and so on and so forth..
all these seems small, but love is something that can be seen through small actions, rather than big ones like buying expensive stuffs for your partner..
love doesnt require alot of money, but alot of time, patience, care and concern. :)
even the richest guy in this world may not have these qualities..

blogged till here..

2009-10-11T00:26:00.003+08:00

God's presence is definitely there tonight..

the feeling is like..
finally someone is there to help...
when all hopes are lost..something is there..
UNSHAKABLE is the word to describe the way He stood..
pulled me out of misery.. out of sooo much troubles i had this week...
in terms of spiritual attacks and emotional disorder...
He was there..
to comfort me...to help me..
tears just rolled down my cheeks continuously as the worship team sings this song..
this is the closest touch i felt from Him since..
not physically, but mentally..
but something like this that we cannot see nor feel is more powerful than what we felt..
way way way more powerful..nothing beats this..

during the alter call..surrendered all my problems, my worries to Him..
He accepted all without complains also..
immediately went to the alter..kneel down before Him..
tears continue to flow and flow..
it's so relief and touching to feel Him..
to know that He is there..to just hear me out..help me out later on..
just can't really control my emotions infront of anyone especially Him and just burst out crying..
so comforting that He is there..the only solution to all our problems..listening to it carefully..
the alter was like a 'crying wall' just now..
really felt that my worries remained at level 4 just now..

the song You Hold Me Now..
no weeping, no hurt or pain..
no suffering, You hold me now, You hold me now..
just makes me burst out crying before Him..
He will be the ending point of weepings, the hurt and the pain, the sufferings..
these few sentences makes me think about other people..
people in poverty..makes me realised how unimportant my problems are..
but He thinks that everyone's problem, be it small or big, will still be a problem to Him and He definitely will be there to comfort and to solve the situation..
therefore, i can really say that He is the King Of The Broken..
from the broken hearted..He slowly mends it to become whole again..
where can you find this kind of person on Earth?!

this is a song to reflect..

You Hold Me Now
Hillsong United

Verse 1:

On that day when I see 
All that You have for me 
When I see You face to face 
There surrounded by Your grace 
All my fears swept away 
In the light of Your embrace 
Where Your love is all I need 
And forever I am free 

PRE CHORUS 1: 

Where the streets are made of gold 
In Your presence healed and whole 
Let the songs of heaven rise to You alone 

CHORUS: 
 
No weeping no hurt or pain 
No suffering You hold me now You hold me now 
No darkness no sick or lame 
No hiding You hold me now You hold me now 

VERSE 2: 
In this life I will stand 
Through my joy and my pain 
Knowing there's a greater day 
There's a hope that never fails 
Where Your Name is lifted high 
And forever praises rise 
For the glory of Your Name 
I'm believing for the day 

PRE CHORUS 2: 
Where the wars and violence cease 
All creation lives in peace 
Let the songs of heaven 
Rise to You alone 

Bridge:

Your kingdom come
Your will be done
Here on earth as it is in heaven

He is always there to love us when everything fails..

2009-10-09T13:28:00.000+08:00

Never Say Goodbye
Bon Jovi

As I sit in this smokey room
The night about to end
I pass my time with strangers
But this bottle's my only friend
Remember when we used to park
On Butler Street out in the dark
Remember when we lost the keys
And you lost more than that in my backseat baby
Remember how we used to talk
About busting out - we'd break their hearts
Together - forever
Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
You and me and my old friends
Hoping it would never end
Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
Holdin' on - we got to try
Holdin' on to never say goodbye
Remember days of skipping school
Racing cars and being cool
With a six pack and the radio
We didn't need no place to go
Remember at the prom that night
You and me we had a fight
But the band they played our favorite song
And I held you in my arms so strong
We danced so close
We danced so slow
And I swore I'd never let you go
Together - forever
Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
You and me and my old friends
Hoping it would never end
Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
Holdin' on - we got to try
Holdin' on to never say goodbye
I guess you'd say we used to talk
About busting out
We'd break their hearts
Together - forever

dedicated to dearest! :D <3<3

2009-10-03T13:11:00.003+08:00

boring shyt man...

sian ar..dont know what im thinking now..
just....sian i guess..
partly's due to the re-opening of school..
not used to it ba..used to just hang around at home and work for quite some time..
holiday's 5 weeks and it passes by with a blink of an eye..
and the next thing you knew, its 2-3 more months before 2010 steps in...
that makes me wonder again..what did i do for my life?

i felt that i didnt do much though..
just work and study.....
the only thing that i improve myself on is to start learning driving..
thats all...
but the happy thing is that i'm with God once again..
happy to be in His presence..
the backslided period wasn't something good as you kinda feel lost everyday..
now that i've find my shepard again, it feels better...

boring shyt la..one more day to school re-opening..
school re-opening means = new friends = start all over to make new friends AGAIN = diaozz..
eh what to do la?
i only got 25 points for my L1R4..
if not this, then jiu ITE alr..
better than nothing lor..

life's sian for me right now..
sigh..wonder what can really cheer me up now?

2009-09-30T11:28:00.002+08:00

i'm back to blogged! :D

yesterday was cooool! finally rushed my PP report yesterday..stayed up in school all the way from 2 plus until 10 plus man..hahas..didn't leave the com at all..except for going toilet and stuff..hahas..
so happy that it's finished! but dearest haven..so much encouraged her...hahahs..yupp..
i finished with plagiarism status of 6%! :(
is it a good thing or bad thing? i don't know man..
other people's may be lower than mine..

anyways...
today i woke up with a smile on my face..
i seldom do that okay..just that a special day or something than i can do that..
today isn't kind of special day..just that..

I FINALLY CAN HAVE TIME WITH MY DEAREST!

wahahahahahahas....
although it's not the whole day that we are going out..but i confirm will treasure de..
because holiday's ending and both of us seriously are damn busy! >.<'
so i told her i dun care..must meet up!
hahahahahhas..
fast right? come to think of it..me and my dearest are going 7 months..
hahas..but we will go more! in 7 years! in 70 years! :D hahahahahahahhahaahhaas
today damn happyyyy!

oh..got one sad thing..
MY COM CANNOT PLAY STREET FIGHTER 4 LUH.... T.T
planning to buy the cd today..in the end ar..tried the game from my bro's cd..cannot..
wah..ji tao sian diaos...-.-''
anyways..
going to go prepare ler! :D

to dearest : jia you for your pp ok! focus dear! :D you can do it because i'll be here to support you like how u supported me yesterday.. :)

2009-09-26T13:18:00.002+08:00

HISTORY MAKER: THE GREATER HITS

by looking at the front cover, it's gonna be a "WOW" thing.
it comprises all of the hit songs from their first album to their last..
things like " I Could Sing Of Your Love Forever", " Deeper", "My Soul Sings" etc.
nice eh? :)

2009-09-26T12:38:00.002+08:00

dear..just to dedicate this song as our 7th month anniversary is coming..
hahas..
let's not let our relationship waver because we didnt meet much..
and most importantly, dont let our faith with Him fades... :)

here's the song by The Carpenters, Close To You. :)

Why do birds
Suddenly appear?
Everytime you are near
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

Why do stars
Fall down from the sky?
Everytime you walk by
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

On the day that you were born
The angels got together and decided
To create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moondust in your hair
Of gold and starlight in your eyes of blue

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

Woo... Close to you...

hahas..yupp..just for you this time dear... :)
thats what i feel like..being close to you dear..

2009-09-24T22:49:00.002+08:00

dear god, is it a test for our relationship?

we only meet on wednesdays and saturdays for service..
is it just a test to see whether can we manage it together?
i kinda feel like it is testing me because i really miss my dearest alot..
she's working, i'm working...both of timing different..how to meet?
the only times we meet are during cell meetings and service...
although school is start..but god..i really wanted our private time..
just one day pls?

really love you god, and love my dearest. both of these are the most precious things to me now.
i can give up anything just for the two of them. really.

to my dearest, i dont know how to explain it, but i'm seriously missing you right now..
although our paths may not be smooth, i just want to tell you we will still move on yeah?
when god is with us, i know we can..
i cant imagine one day living without you dear..your smiles and laughter really brought colours to my life..
is something i couldnt buy dear..
last but not least,

I LOVE YOU.

these few weeks have been chiong-ing work like nobody's business..
me and my dearest are working very hard for what we want..
we earned for our things..earned for YA camp..
and last but not least is to tithe and give back to Him what He gave us..
this week has been a blissful week for both me and dearest...
He really gave us more than what we asked! he blessed me with truckloads of love..
thats all i can say..
dearest finally got approval from her parents that she is able to YA camp..(when her parents are kinda against christians)..
and finally yvonne feels His presence and finally understand how god is able to help her now!
God really is with us...

my throat is killing me the whole day man..
pls get better...
anyways..WHO'S UP FOR PHOBIA 2 NEXT WEEK?! ;)

2009-09-12T00:25:00.005+08:00

these few weeks have been blessed by God! :)
there's been an accident..
i accidentally deleted what I'VE WROTE! ARGHHHHHHHHHHH...

anyways..
today have worship team meeting..
is about Reaping In Love..
a motto from our Go Forth! (EAOG's 40th anniversary! )..

Love really is a big thing!
it makes the world goes round...
and after that meeting just now..
and after my cell group this week ( which they were talking about reaching out to the community )..

something came to my mind and i tell myself i should help them! ;D

POVERTY!

yupp..
don't you feel heart-breaking after seeing this picture?
i really feel that we are very blessed by Him.
i want to go to them and help them out someday, with my dearest! :)
because my dearest is into kids, and im sure we can help them at least by making their day happier when me and my dearest are around them! :D
making them happy is something that even blessed people like us cant buy..
yupp! :)

my plan now is to use my blessing as much as possible?
i want my dearest to be with me too! :)
and hoping her bestie, yvonne, also yeah? :)
the rest will leave it to Him. :)

gtg...!
love my dearest so much! <3

2009-09-04T13:37:00.004+08:00

was actually spending some time reading on how's my dearest's life before i came by..
dunno but im just curious to know more of her..
but nevertheless, i seriously find my dearest damn cute can..
hahahas..

this is her blog post on her birthday this year.. :)

got 2 parts..because her blog cannot COPYRIGHT MA... -.-
so i have to snipe it out and paste it as a picture..
hahahas!

dont know whether you guys can seee..
if cannot go her blog..LOL...

yupp..

to my dearest:
glad to see that you are happy now...compared to the past eh? :)
happy for you and happy for both of us.. :D

2009-09-03T23:47:00.002+08:00

heys..

backed to blogged after such a really longgggggggggggggggggggggg time luh... T.T

adaptor's being a bitch..man..wire broke at the wrong time man..
guess what? right before UT okays..
T.T
anyways..thanks to my dearest and classmate's help..
still manage to finish my 6 hrs worth of papers! :)

holidays are here even before a blink of an eye..
work cant work..so slacked around for some time...
no shifts at work man..tsk..what to do?

yupp..nothing much for this holiday yet..
looking forward for something that really can blow my mind off school stuff..
its just like im in a standby mode which i will have on weekends..
you know what i mean? its like..whenever it reaches monday..ur standby mode needs to turn on back to school mode..
but holiday isn't in standby mode..but CRAZY MODE! :)
oh well..maybe im asking too much..?

and with a blink of an eye.....

2 MORE DAYS TO 6 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!

hahahas..
yupp...
so fast right? i cant even take it..HAHA..
nah..actualy can la..hahas..

to my dearest:
dear..no matter what happen..and i seriously mean..WHAT HAPPEN..i still love you ya? :)
hahas..you'll always be my baby..
so much loves just for you dear! :D

thats it.. :)

2009-08-18T23:53:00.002+08:00

SUP!

hahas..changed my blog skin yo!
:)
like it? don't like it?
feel free to comment on my tag board! :)
although there are some minor stuffs that its yet to be done, just rate it as it is now lor..hahas..
sorry!

will try to 'perfect' it asap as UT 3 is starting from tml! :)

2009-08-10T22:01:00.001+08:00

IM BACK FROM MALAYSIAAAAA~!!!!

omg..this is the first time i had so much fun! (apart from the ones that i went for competition, which is like so farrrr back back back! )

hahahs..
hmmmm..
this trip was fun because i went with dearest's family! :)
they are a good bunch of people and i really feel that i'm very blessed to have my dearest... :)

DAY 1:

at first, i head out for dearest's house to meet up with them..
helped an old lady in the mrt station because she was wheel-chaired bound and the gate just wont open for her..therefore... i went down to the control station at outram park to inform the customer service centre..hahas..and ITS DONE! :)
after that..i met up with dearest's family and do some last preparations before heading for johor!
hahas..yupp...
we also DA PAO Mcdonald's in the car to eat..
the car super steady one lors...damn squeezy for the whole journey! LOL..i will never forget!
hahas..then we went in to johor..
for me..excitment fills my heart totally as this is the first time i went overseas after like 5 long years!
how excited can you be? hahahas..
some more going with dearest..hahas..
then we head for dearest's uncle house to stayover..
it was... HELLLLLLLLLLLLLL!
spider webs are everywhere and im like so itchy all over the place... :(
but still, her uncle was kind enough to let us stayover for the night.. :)

DAY 2:

genting is on our mind the moment we wake up!
HAHAHA.
seriously, i cant wait to get the hell out of dearest's uncle house..because..

MY SKIN CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!

nevertheless, her uncle's family brought us to a nearby kopitiam and have breakfast..
not bad la..the food..i ate wan ton mee..
hmmm..this kind of taste cannot be found in singapore anymore..hahas..its sooooo last time lor?

hahas...yupp..went towards GENTING after that!
so happy la..as the car is moving up towards the highland..
of course..we saw cars stopping on the roadside due to some difficulties..
but we managed to reached!
and you cant believe how fresh the air was! it was cold and 100% fresh and its so GENTING LOR!
hahas..thats the best time i had with my dearest...hahas..
its like we're in honeymoon! :)
hahas..we played all the theme parks ride..it was fun!
HAHA..
you should be there to witness clement's ( dearest's bro) reaction when he took a thriller ride called Superman something de..hahahas..
he was like : " AH AH AH AH OH OH AH OH ! " LOLOL.
hahas..
played the whole day, then we head to another's uncle's house to stay..

OMG..this uncle ar..i love him so damn much!
not a single dust i could find at his house man! HAHA..
its like i can even crawl around the house..LOL..
okay..reached..bathed..and slept..
hahas..everyone used every single ounce of their energy on the theme parks at genting..
hahas..

DAY 3:

mostly chionging..hahahas..
morning went to eat PIG BLOOD SOUP! ;)
hahas..cool eh?
taste like fish eggs..hahas..
well..nevertheless, its something worth trying! :)
hahas..
after that..dearest and her sis went for treatment on her hair and i follow clement and parents to fix his specs and maintain the car tyres..
hahas..
yupp..
after that we shopped..bought some things back for my mum..
dearest and her family bought theirs also..
after that my dear went to another place to shop also..
walked around..after that..
ate MEE HOON KWAY! :)
damn nice la! hahahas..wth..you cannot find another bowl of that in singapore.! trust me..
hahas..after that we head back ler..

yupp..i had alot of fun with my dearest..
and i hope that she have fun also..
hahas..

and one last thing..

dear, i love you.
thank you for these 3 days, which i'll never forget in my life..
whatever i said last night was true..
i hope you enjoyed yourself also..! :)
LOVES. <3

2009-07-25T22:59:00.002+08:00

yooo!!!

hahas..back to blogged..
yeaps!
just now had one hell of a time at marina bay! :D
the NDP rehearsal is very happening! :)
hahas..me and baby did have fun! :)
although she is not feeling too well.. ;S
dear..take care alrights?
the cell will pray for u. ;)
hahahas..

yipeeee!
TOMORROW NO WORK!
i seriously need a rest..wah..
its been such a boring life for me...
its like school, work, school, work..hahahs..
finally tml can have a whole day at home or something..yupp..
hahahas..
BTT's coming in a week's time! hahas..cant wait to proceed asap! :)
hahas..cant wait to touch the clutch legally! :D
hahahahahahs...

going to genting with dearest's family soon! hope everything went well man..
:)

2009-07-22T11:08:00.002+08:00

yo!

today is 22nd July!
means that today will have Eclipse!
in case you dont know,
this is one of the longest Eclipse seen on earth! :D

its cool you know..
but too bad..singapore isnt affected..so cant really see the process happening..
oh well..
only india and china is affected..hahhas..yeah..
but the funny thing is...
some part when they see the eclipse, its white colour!
some see it with a red colour! :D
eeeeerrriieeeeeee...
hahahahas..
but interesting man! to see this kind of thing..its amazing!
of course la..because its the work of HIS! :)

yupp...
life for me now is going up and up and up!
god has been kind..
love Him! :)
cheryl and i has been good..
very happy to be with her! :)
love her to the coreeeeee~! :)

k la..
blog till here.. :)

2009-07-16T09:55:00.002+08:00

THIS IS THE NEXT BIG THING!

hahahahs..
okay..
by right, i am not supposed to be engross in harry potter due to religious thing, but its entertainment eh?
well, at least i looked it that way..
i only like the part where they fight..its cool la..imagine u fight without ur fists and legs, but using wooden sticks to fight?
hahas..
dun worry..i won copy them..HAHAHA.. ;)
cheryl chua, this and next week u will be DEAD! I WILL NAG ALL HARRY POTTER THING ON YOU....
hahahas..

cheryl's kind of poor thing..
everytime we watch something that interests me, i will nag and disturb and nag and disturb her..HAHAHAHAA..
wad to do?
LOL..
love her okays!

hahas..
finally told alvin (cell leader) about this..
and cheryl and i was so blessed by him and Him..
hahas..
we are so happy and relieved that alvin knows about us..
not only can help us..but he can help us grow also! :D
good la..
cheryl's starting to serve..so happy for her..
can see that she is really different from what she used to be last time! :)
ahahahas..
hope this will continue because its the best time of my life so far! :D:D:D:D
hahas..

and...
3RD AUGUST IS MY BTT TEST!!!!!!
omg omg omg omg!
hahahas..so damn excited..
but ar..
yuan xing (classmate) come into my class..saw me holding the BTT test book..
then he say this : " wah lao, wad era already, still BTT"
hahahas..
everything starts small wad..
lol..
nvm! I WILL TA HAN ALL THE SUANS...
lol...

dear cheer up okay!
:)
爱死你了!
:)

2009-07-04T11:15:00.002+08:00

yo! back to blog already..

this week has been a special one for me as it's my birthday weeek! :D
hmmm..
wednesday was my celebration day! :D
hahahas..was having the whole day outing with my dearest..
we went for a good meal, follow by movie..

hmmm..we had Billy Bombers for a sumptuous meal! :D
hahas..we share 3 plates of food! OMG.
one fish and chips, one honey stung chicken, one lamb shark.HAHAHAHAHA
we ate like hungry ghost! LMAO..
anyways..we did had a very good PT time together... :)
hahas..later on after the meal...we went straight for desserts! :D hahas..
of course, we went to swensen's for their famous well-known ice cream! :D
my dearest was v happy to eat their ice cream..hahahas..can see ar! :D
hahs..anyways...we had good desserts...hahas..yeaps..
and....

WE ARE LIKE LATE FOR THE MOVIEEE~!

lol..
me and dearest is like walking so fast! HAHA..our shoes can fly off anytime..LOL
hahas..anyways..we went to watch Ice Age 3 in 3D! :D hahas..yeaps..
okay la..the things inside the movies like quite cute..my dearest likes the baby mammoth and baby t-rex..
hahas...

hmmm..okay la..had a quite a simple celebration...
can see my dear make alot of effort for me to enjoy my birthday..which i appreciated it alot.. :)
hahas..
yupp..
blog till here.. :)

2009-06-29T11:23:00.002+08:00

no time + no good blog skins = not changing blog skins! >.<

hmmm..
so long never blog..so decided to write something now..

transformers was great!!
excellent!
marvellous!
bravo!
lol..
i rate it...4.99 + 0.01 /5!
wahahahahahahas...
its damn nice la...the graphics and everything is very nicely done! well done Michael Bay! :D
hahas..

hmmm...
last week didnt do anything much..
just worked yesterday..because was short of money! hahas..
saving up for my license fund..
yupp..
hahas...

the service on saturday was really great! :)
kinda motivates me to be a better person..
a great warrior!
so i think i should start changing some things in my life..
things like bad habits..
i will start off from smoking!
guys..i will officially quit it very soon..because i knew that i can make it..
whenever i smoke, the people ard me will not be quite happy..
so i think i should really quit it..
before the sermon, i really have no intentions to quit..
but people change ya? :)

nothing much alr...

my dearest is sick!
please take care okays! :)
loves dear.. <3

2 more days! HAHA

2009-06-21T23:08:00.002+08:00

PHEW...

what a fierce weekend..HAHA

hmm..started off with friday night...
damn..friday's having engineering cost decision module, followed by statistical methods for engineering's UT..
well..
i admit that i am very confident in this UT the most as i think that i can understand this module the best apart from the rest..
compared to other 3 module's UT..i think that i've written the most words in this UT..
hahas..yupp..

after that..dearest and i head towards adeline's birthday party!
it was a disaster man..... -.-'''''''
we arrived late into the night..around 8.30 or 9? because the party was held at changi village, and we are travelling from woodlands..
well..before that..reached at tampines mall to buy her present..as her invitation to the party was kinda last minute and dearest and i had kinda having financial difficulties..so we bought it last minute...
bought a cookie monster soft toy for her! heard from her bestie, Esther, that she loves Sesame Street, and we passed by a mickey mouse shop, which sell loads of soft toys from different cartoons like sesame street, mickey mouse, winnie the pooh and loads more...
yeaps..the shop's kinda cute though..including the workers there..
they were like smiling all along..wearing the clothes minnie mouse wore..gahahas...
cute eh? dearest's favouritesssss..jap jap and more jap stuffs..hahahs..

well..continue to the story..went on to the party..ate something..
AND DRANK BECARDI(forget how to spell it? LOL)..
that night's too tired i guess..went into TIPSY MODE the moment i finish the cup..hahas..
had to let dearest followed me home before she went home..and i rushed her like mad..
went home..puked ALLL OVER the kitchen's floor..damned it man..if my parents are in town they would have KILLED me..lol..in the end..scooped up the vomit and threw it away..mopped the flooring while my leg's like jelly...finally went to sleep..

on saturday..didnt do much..
dearest came to my house..and we slack and slack and slack..
changing alot of destinations and decisions around..finally decided that we should overnight at her cashew house..hahahas..
so..we ate dinner together..
ordered mac delivery la..hmm...in fact this is the first time i do order mac delivery..hahas..
know why?
because my parents are health conscious people..ahas..so u know what will happen when i ordered this kind of junkies that contradicts what they emphasize..HAHA...

anyways..
finish dinner le then jiu head for dearest house..
go there already..isaac(baby cousin) wants to play monopoly..
i was like "okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy"..because im very tired..seriously..-.-''
hahas..had some fun first..then buay ta han..go upstairs lie down..
in the end everyone started talking so loudly and on tv and there are nice shows during that time (which is past midnight already )...
i didnt sleep until 3am..HAHAHAHA..
so..the tiredness did compile...

AND IM VERY TIRED NOWWWW!!!!

hahahahs..
but it was a short and sweet weekend..
hahas..
one more weeeeeeeeekkkk!!!!
HAHAHAHA.
to be exact, its 10 more days. ;)
wakakakas.. :D

2009-06-16T23:51:00.004+08:00

for now, i would like to do something very important to my special someone! :)

TO MY DEAREST CHERYL CHUA,

I

AM

SO

DAMN

SORRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OKAY...
i admit im a real bastard these few days..
i did things which my dearest didnt suppose to get it..
i did things like scold her for nothing..
flare up for nothing..
ignore her for nothing...
so, i would like to do something now just to repent of what i have did during these past few days because i've felt very very very guilty nowadays because of this..

i know i have been very bad-tempered these few days due to some reasons i dont even know myself, my dearest, pls tolerate my childish-ness okays?

couples do spend good and bad times together yeah? our relationship is the same..and i believe that these things that happen will bring us together even closer, to the extend that we are sticking each other skin to skin, not moving away from each other even an inch. :)

to my cheryl dear, i am so damn very sorry!
i will and i am trying very hard to control my temper alr!
pls understand me abit okays?
so so so sorry!

we will and we must be like what we are last time, so simple, yet so happy and loving yeah?
from you i've learnt that a relationship does not need to be very expensive ( spend on expensive things, hang out with a hug sum of money ), but from you i realise that love is not about other things except for you and me. :)

cheryl chua! I LOVE YOU!!!! :D
heh heh...
and 19 more days to our 4 MONTHS ANNI! :D
and counting! OF COURSE! :D

and i bet that she will smile widely the moment she reads this. heh heh heh! :D

2009-06-14T14:08:00.003+08:00

hmmmm..today's a sunday! :)
rest at home..nothing much..

hmmm..tml will mark the end of the 2 weeks holidays..sad to say..well..
but wednesdays programs go as usual! :D hahas..
glad that my dearest FINALLY like a sport that she can continue doing it..
dont say i not good ar..never call u go jogging ler hor..hahas..
well..thats the least i can do to help in what she wants to achieve..TO SLIM DOWN.. -.-''
lol..

holidays ended alr..sad of course..why? mainly alot of things like:
1. TML THERE'S UT! WTH..COME BACK THE FIRST DAY GOT TEST ALR..
2. I WANT TO GO DIVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay..i have been thinking alot for this 2 weeks..damn..
psycho-ed somehow by tas that diving is very fun!
and i finally make up my mind! decided to go diving at least ONCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE before i go NS..PLS PLS PLS?
its a must okays!
or else i go NS WITH REGRETS! HAHAHAHA

serious! im gonna take basic diving first..hahas..make later on then go advance.. :D
hope dearest follows me lor... hmmm...yeaps...hahahs!

today's sunday..
not hanging out..
not working..
NO MONEY! >.<''

but its okay.. money coming in 2 weeks..for my license and my special day! :) :) :) :) *hints hints*

HAHAHA.. kidding la..no hints to anyone.. :)
hahahas.. yeaps! its coming!
and my mood is gonna changed into HYPER MODE SOON! :D

hahahas.. and license! YUM YUM! :D hahahas..

soooooooo...
for today...nothing much..suppose to go help bird to pack his dusty house..lol..
but until now didnt receive his calls eh... i also lazy to call him la..LOL..wah..go his house arh..can die of breathing in too much dust eh..WTH..

hahahas.. so i stayed at home.. be a good boy...watched THE NEW POLICE STORY..! hahas..okay..i know its an old show....but damn nice okay! :D

hahas.. and after that got bored after finishing the show..and this these!!!!! :D

heh heh..nice eh? also another old stuff.. its called photofunia! hahas..go to

www.photofunia.com

and you will be able to find it! :D
hahsa..yupp..other than that..nothing much lor.. :)

gtg!
CIAOSSS~!

2009-06-12T10:33:00.003+08:00

EDITED:

hey guys..
just listened to a song..and really makes me so sad..
just makes me want to share it here..
hmmm..

not everyone in this world is as fortunate as the rest..
people die of illness..suffers hunger for days..
these are the example of the 3rd World countries..
so next time when you are,
angry for not getting an mp3 player on ur birthday..
upset that your bf/gf leaves you..
sad that you cant do what you want..
fight with your siblings over a chicken drumstick on the table..

THINK AGAIN..!

because....
not everyone is as fortunate to listen to music to sleep every night..
not everyone is lucky to even survive hunger, how to even go look for a bf/gf?
not everyone is as rich to have what they wants..
not everyone is as lucky to have chicken drumsticks during meals..

yupp..
last but not least..got a song to let everyone see..
by CompassionArt..
its called : Friend Of The Poor

Friend of the Poor

On the African plains,
A young mother weeps, for her hungry child
She prays he’ll survive, with tear-filled eyes
She looks up to heaven, and calls your name
She pours out her pain
You know her name, and you hear her cries

Friend of the poor, help me through the night
Help me in the fight, come to my rescue
Friend of the poor, take this skin and bones
Make this heart a home, come to my rescue

On the streets of L.A.
An old man lies in his cardboard home
He feels so alone, with tear-stained eyes
He looks up to heaven, and prays a prayer:
“Is there anyone there?”
You know his name and you hear his cries,

It’s getting dark, it’s getting late
It’s cold outside the rich mans gate
And I’m wondering,
Do you have any friends around here?

phew..

holidays are here! and schools are out!
but sad to say, its only for two weeks and its ending very soon! in 2 days?!
omg.

anyways..
this holiday has been a great one..hahas..did some stuff to kill time though..
things like working...yupp..
my main focus this time is for my driving license, therefore try to chiong work and stuff..
but its quite difficult to manage my time as i still need to spend time with my special someone.. :)
hahas..yupp..

anyways..we had a great holiday..although it was a short and simple one, but we did enjoyed ourselves..
we went swimming etc etc..
her so called slim down project ar? hahas..i help her continue and END the project lor.. :)
hahahas..
and she damn cute can..run and fell in the swimming pool! HAHAHAHAHAHA..
then after that she still laugh and come and tell me she fell and she look clumsy.. HEH HEH..
should i buy u a Mr. Clumsy shirt for u? :D :D
anyways..still love her as much! or even more! :D

hahahas..
btw..
work was great! :D first time i didnt complain so much to work..hahas..
although my dearest had to take all my moanings that i do not wan to work..or sian la...lol..pai seh ar..
hahahs..
but work was very fun! :D
hahahs..the time passed very fast..
somehow, this has to do with Him...
i did told him to watch over me while im working this holidays as i really need some cash for my license..
not only he did arrange me some shifts that i can work, he tuned my mentality to work too! :D
at tower, although i keep saying sian, but i still can take it and finish my shifts for each day..! :D
amazing eh? :)
hahas..

oh yah!
i want to go diving!
hopefully by next year! :D:D:D:D
because this year my main focus is driving! :D

hahahas..
cant wait man! :D
see all the fishes!
hahas...
the fish that im looking forward to see is the colour-changing de cuttlefish!
i sure go disturb until they squirt ink! :D HEH HEH HEH.
i wan to BRING DEAREST GO! :)
see nice things together okay! :)

hmmm..
yupp..
other than that..nothing much alr lehs..
hahas..
will write again..

2009-06-04T21:27:00.001+08:00

tml is....

OUR 3RD MONTH ANNIVERSARY! :D
CHERYL CHUA!
I
LOVE
YOU!
;D

2009-06-04T12:40:00.005+08:00

phew..
its been a while since i've blogged! :D
hahas...abit lazy la...and now the latest craze in FB is...MAFIAA WARSSS! :D:D:D
chionging like siao..lol..thanks to tas! >.<''

anyways..holidays are here..nothing much..but work is always in my mind.. mainly is because i want to work more...so that i can go for my license asap as my BIRTHDAY IS COMING SOON! WAHAHAHA.. ;)

hmmm..yupp..but my workplace..sigh..nvm..dun say ler.. miscommunication i guess..well..cant really work now that there is so many part timers there..so yah lor..anyways..

sentosa has been a place where improvements are always happening! examples will be like this:

a new improvement! aka "flying fox" to many people, its at the top right corner of the picture...you see the wires? :)

its connected from the merlion that area there, to this islet right infront of the lifeguard tower, at siloso beach! its gonna be done soon.. :D :D
must try!!!! WAHAHAHAS.. :)

dear say she is scared when she is in NPCC LORRRRRRR... LOL..
kidding..

anyways..
this is taken ages ago while i was working..boring ar.. hahahas..

a smoking sea urchin!!! URGHHHH!!! LOL..
nice eh? i was finding an ash tray when i found this! HAHAHA..

lol..hmm..good times and bad times always happen in our lives eh?
like that Eng said " ups and downs forms up a life"..which is true..you cant possibly have good times all the time? right? you also need to learn from mistakes and stuff..

alright! :D
26 more days to my birthday! :D :D yipeeeeeee! :D
hahahahas..be excited! because its once a year only!
and finally, license! after so many years of fantasizing it! LOL..kidding la..
no, it should be : after so many years of holding a daytona license, its time to get a real one! :D

hahahahaahhahaahahahhas..

so....WHO NEEDS A RIDE? :D:D

LOL

2009-05-28T09:55:00.001+08:00

hahas..try this out!

2009-05-21T13:36:00.002+08:00

hmmmm..
class is super zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... for thursdays especially.. (class with JiAiDONGGGGG)..
i seriously cant catch any ball...then also got no balls for me to catch.. -.-''

yupp..
the only thing that class is fun is the people around..and of course the all and favourite CS! :D
during breaks..everyone sure will shout.." network! network! "
hahahas..

anyways..
sooner or later..

NICE MOVIES ARE COMING OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT...!!!!
:)
things like:

1.Monsters VS. Aliens
2.Night At Museum 2
3.Transformers 2 (trailers @ www.transformersmovie.com)
4.UP

alot more arh..lazy to write everything..just that this 3 movies is a confirm MUST WATCH! :D
and cheryl and i did say okay ler...must watch Monsters vs Aliens in 3D!!! (UP also? :D)
hahahahas..the first time im watching a 3D show! will be fun and exciting i guess! LOL..
i like small boy ar..

hahas..good good good!
at least there are things for me to look forward too..
anyways..

11 MORE DAYS TO PHILBERT'S BIRTHDAY!!! :D

hahahas..philbert! :D my bestie since sec 1..we knew each other not in class..but in TAF CLUB HOR..
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahas..
and everytime we had pft..i still need to push him to run! :D
hahahas
bird ah bird! going 18 soon! :D hahas..man..we are growing up! ;D
then shortly after 1st June..one more month will be my birthday ler! ;D
hahahahas..happy happy happy! :D

anyways..
went a new church..! :D
hahas..finally had kinda settle down there..went in to cheryl's cell..because she was the one who brought me there.. :D
the church's Emmanuel Assembly Of God..
the people there are nice.. :D
and the good thing is the population in the church is quite small..i like..
because im more of a like-quiet-place-and-less-people de person..yupp..hahahs...
good good.. :)

i need some miracles in school right now..
and i dont know how to start my PP project's report writing! :(
a report writing worth of at LEAST 2 THOUSAND WORDS....!!!!!
ok la..not so bad la..hahas..

okay la..
gtg...

yipeee! :D
going 3 months in 15 days.. :D
hor cheryl? :D

2009-05-07T13:44:00.002+08:00

all i can say is..

SCHOOL IS DAMN STRESSED NOWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sian sia..
all i can do is nothing for me..
tsk..
you know why?

because most of the modules related are MATHS! >.<
which im super lousy in..
hmm..
but i did try okay..
seriously..just that..things are not the same whenever my teammates are not around..
i felt so helpless everytime during UT..
because im a careless person, do maths sure wrong..
thats why i need team mates to correct me..

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..
school stress!
weekends are the time when i can really slack and rest well..
then need to work.. -.-''
no work no money..
money is never enough for a society like ours now..
everything needs money for us to have a comfortable life..
hmmmm.

what to do?
this saturday's gg back to Him with cheryl..
don know whether am i ready for him not..
just scared that things will turn out like how it is in the previous church..
hmmmm...
but what someone told me really is something that i will remembered..

" jiajun, if u think that there's a church in this whole earth that is filled with good people, no conflicts, no quarrels etc etc, then you are wrong. because in this world, no one is perfect, and the only place where these churches exist is when your time is up and the place you would be going."

zzzzzz..
i want to serve Him again..
but HOW?

2009-05-04T09:30:00.003+08:00

hmmmm..

sometimes people dont seems to be noticing you..
but actually deep inside, they are watching your every movement..
welll...
this is one way humans communicate, through silent actions..

hmmm..went to watch X-Men Origins on the day the movie came out..
DAMN FUCKING NICEEEEEEEEEEEE....
esp Gambit.
hahas..
but the movie made Gambit looked so lousy.. :S
zzzzzzzzz..
but overall..
4/5! :)
hahahas..

these few days has been a v fun and enjoyable days..
esp the weekends..
spent it on yumi's own house..
hmmm..
although i admit that the part where yumi and her sis quarrel wasnt good..
i had a good time tickling clement ( her bro )..HAHAH

hmmm..
upcoming movies!

1.night at museum 2
2. transformers 2
3. HP 6!

hahas..
gtg..
:)

2009-04-28T09:12:00.002+08:00

classes nowadays are getting more and more boring liaosssss...

hahas..
classes nowadays is like..
1.reach school
2. on com.
3. FB's RESTAURANT CITY.!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wahahahahahahas..
I WILL BE THE BEST RESTAURANT MANAGERRRR!!!!!!! in facebook.. -.-'

hahas..
well..actually i damn lazy to blog one..
is someone ask me to update..so update lor..

injured my knee and leg last sunday while having tkd session..
well..on monday its quite painful..
but now's better..
ALRIGHT!
friday's holiday! :D:D:D
i want to go PRAWNINGGGGG...
like fun ar..last time used to do things like go out to sea and fish..
prawning..
now grow up liaos..
everyone's busy liaos..
so..yah..

anyways..
yesterday night is a v good encouragement for me! :)
did had some fun..
although it was something simple..
but still memorable! :D:D:D:D

hahas..
gtg then..
:)

2009-04-21T11:09:00.003+08:00

hmmm..
back to blogging..
boring shyt..

wah..my blog like dying sia..
alll nv update and stuff...oh well..
hmmm..
shall update now..

the holidays has been great..been going out alot these few months..slack..play..eat..slack..play..eat..
haha..
hmmm..
but i really wished that i can go overseas..snorkelling and stuff u know..
beach is somewhere i would love to go..
maybe its due to the exposure of water when i was young..tend to have the natural bond with it?
hahas..
yupp..

the last few days of the holidays..
brings back the memories.. :D:D:D

hahas..

well...

THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.
hmm..
E44M..
my first group was the best! :D
wth yong soon, khaliq, mabel and me..
well..although the module wasnt really fun to do..but i still enjoyed my first day at class! ;D

i think the people here are great! ;D
hmmm..quite friendly i would say..just that other people must initiate the conversation then they will start talking..i think its because its the first day and everyone is shy and everything..
hahas..
DPDP eh? hmmm..yupp.. :D

on top of that..
nothing much happen la..
just that recently i dun even feel like going home..
because everytime i step into my house..i smell something called " I.N.J.U.S.T.I.C.E"
yupp..
im the youngest what..
still young..of course EVERYTHING also dont know..
what parents said are correct..and im wrong..
try to tell them how i feel..say i talk back to them..
don say anything..they continue nagging..
try to prevent more nagging by lying..in the end more naggings..
no one in the family trust the youngest..
YUPP.
recently have been feeling quite down..
so sorry guys whom i flared up with..
i seriously think i need to keep going back to TKD..
release all my anger on my sparring partner..or better..the sandbag..

I SWEAR THAT IF I HAVE A SANDBAG AT HOME I'LL PUNCH IT AND FUCKING BURST IT INFRONT OF MY FATHER'S FACE.

yupp...
nvm..
this sunday! TKD TIME.
GRAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWH.
must recover now..
body weak..have beeen doing workouts these few days..
ache like fuck..move here..pain..move there..pain..
hmm..do somemore and i'll get fever in no time..
tried it before tho..HEH HEH.. ;)

need rest! :D

2009-04-13T14:58:00.002+08:00

sorry for the late updates, but this is the latest chapter for NOB.

naruto : here

one piece: here

bleach: here

some people are faggots..
say things at people's back..hmm..
for once i agreed with someone in my class.
that they are nothing but a burden to the society..
FAGGOTS..

2009-04-06T16:14:00.002+08:00

live from Bogota, Columbia.
yupp!
its from Delirious? latest and last album : My Soul Sings! :D

although the quality is not as good, but do enjoy!

the song they singing is: How Sweet The Name

note : watch the instrumental part..my fav.!!!! :D;D;D;D

2009-04-04T18:48:00.002+08:00

well..soryr for late post! but here's this week's chapter for NOB. :D

Naruto : here!

Bleach : here!

One Piece : here!

hahas..yupp...
sian..
these few days kena Gastritis.. -.-''
old problem la..aiyo..damn irritating one..
hmmm..well..have to eat 4 packets of medicine, 3 times a day... -.-''
great ehhh?

tml's work..
hmm..to me..work is something that you cannot stop for too long..
or else u might have this feeling that you hate the work so much...
dunno whether will it happen on others but it is definitely happening to me... T.T

oh well..
everytime i tell this to anyone..
all they said was... "aiya, never mind la..at least got money to take mah.."
well..money is another issue, yes, but is not really a motivation for me to go work..
partly is also my colleagues there..
and loads of stuff arh..yea luh..

blog till here then.. :)
enjoy those mangas..

2009-04-02T12:11:00.002+08:00

NOTE: THEY ARE NOT THE REAL BIGBANG AND WONDERGIRLS.

LMFAO! if you know who is Wondergirls and BigBang then you will know why tis is funny. :)

2009-03-31T13:04:00.002+08:00

hmmm..came across this old song..
just love the tune and everything! ^^
hahas.. enjoy!

Bu De Bu Ai - Pan Wei Bo

不得不爱-潘伟柏

Tian tian dou xu yao ni ai,
Wo de xing shi you ni cai,
I love you,
Wo jiu shi yao ni rang wo mei tian dou jing cai

Tian tian ba ta gua zhui bian
Dao di shen me shi zhen ai
I love you
Dao di you ji fen shuo de bi xiang xiang geng kuai

Shi wo men gang qing feng fu tai kang kai
Hai shi shang tian ang pai
Shi wo men ben lai jiu shi na yi ban
Hai shi she bu de tai guai
Shi na yi chi yue ding le mei you lai
Rang wo ku de xiang xiao hai
Shi wo men ji zhe zheng ming wo chun zai
Hai shi bu ai hui fa dai

Baby
Bu de bu ai, bu zhi kuai le chong he er lai,
Bu de bu ai, fang xia bei shang chong her er lai,
Bu de bu ai, fou zhi wo jiu shi qu wei lai

Hai xiang shen me you qi bu neng zhi ji shi bai
Ke shi mei tian dou guo de jing cai
Tian tian dou xu yao ni ai
Wo de xing zhi you ni zai
I love you
Wo jiu shi yao ni rang wo mei tian dou jing cai

Tian tian ba ta gua zhui bian
Dao di shen me shi zhen ai
I love you
Dao di you ji fen shuo de bi xiang xiang geng kuai

Rap :
I ask gal fren how you been
Lai qu le ji hui
Wo chong lai mei you xiang guo ai qing hui bian de ru chi wu nai,
Shi ming yun ma, nan dao nan guo shi shang tian de an pai,
Mei ban fa,
Tian tian de mei tian de xing shi dao di you shui lai pei,
Wo cheng xin, ni cheng yi
Dan zhou wei rao ren huan jin shi zhong rang wo men wu fa zai zhi li zhi you xiang lian
Wo jin cai, ni fa dai,
Liang ke xin bu an de yao bai,
Ying gai you de wei lai,
Shi fou zhen ne na me wu fa qi dai
She bu de zai shang hai,
You're my girl my girl my friend
How much i love you so so much
Kan zhe ni ai chou
Yao wo ru he zhen me cheng shou mian dui
I'm sorry you're my sweetheart
My love
My one and only baby

Hui bu hui you yi dian wu nai
Hui bu hui you yi dian tai kuai
Ke shi ni gei wo de ai
Rang wo yang cheng le yi lai
Xing zhong chong man ai de jie pai

Tian tian dou xu yao ni ai
Wo de xing shui you ni zai
I love you
Wo jiu shi yao rang ni mei tian dou jing cai

Tian tian ba ta gua zhui bian
Dao di shen me shi zhen ai
I love you
Dao di you ji fen shuo de bi xiang xiang geng kuai

2009-03-27T14:08:00.002+08:00

one of the reason why i LOVEEEE fridays is because of N.O.B.. :D:D

Naruto

One Piece

Bleach! :D

omg omg..they are getting more and more exciting! :D
well..just that bleach and naruto got NEVER-ending power, ALWAYS. -.-'
but damn nice arh! ;D i still love every manga they have!
so from now on! for those who read mangas will be happy,
because i'll upload the links to the latest chapter of the 3 mangas!
thats if i happy lor..LOL...

anyways, here's this week's one.

Bleach : http://onemanga.com/Bleach/351/01/
Naruto : http://onemanga.com/Naruto/441/01/
One Piece : http://onemanga.com/One_Piece/537/00-cover/

done!
credits to onemanga.com

hahas..yupp!
:)
this website is full of nice manga! ;D

anyways..
these few days are tiring!
yesterday just went to run! :D
hahas..i felt my legs are stronger and yesterday i can say that during the run i actually performed abit more than usual, can feel the adrenaline running in my veins man.. :)
hahsa..had a good dinner also, though is a simple one..
hahas..yupp.. :)
tml's last day for KM8..damn it..nv been there before..would like to try..but everyone not free sia..oh well..
still got Bora Bora and Cafe Del Mar..so its okay la.. :D

hahas.
blog till here.. :)

2009-03-22T14:23:00.000+08:00

God Is Smiling

Open up the gates of love
Turn the tide and stop the flood
You've got my heart now, got my soul.
Who is my neighbour, wheres the love?
That speaks for those our world has lost
It's every heart now, it's every soul

We are one, when our beating [bleeding] hearts belong
And our love can be the revolution
That sees your kingdom come

God is smiling over us tonight
God is smiling over us tonight
where hearts are broken love unites
God is smiling, God is smiling over us tonight

So we must cross the great divide
Of colour, creed of wealth and pride
Break our hearts and save us all
So can we sing a brand new song?
Where former enemies belong
It's every heart now, every soul.

You are the centre.

Written by Delirious? ©2008 Curious? Music UK

zzzzzzzzzz..
this song rocks my socks! :D
hahas..especially the new album : My Soul Sings.
hahas..
hmmm..
sadly, they didnt add "How Sweet The Name" inside the audio disc, but it appeared live on dvd..tsk..
the rock instumental part is very nice la..!
and Bliss was awesome! with the cool mic effects...
hmm..
and not forgetting their lead solo by Stu G, IT ROCKS. :)
sadly, they are seperating by the end of this year..tsk..

hmmm...
these few days has been kinda hell for me..
due to me working for like 2 consequtive days of OTs at work...phew...
oh well..but i can manage la..as in still can tah han.. :)
hahas..yupp..
there will not be work until next week, so i'll take this chance to rest as much as i can! :D

anyways..these few nights has been working with Eng ah..of course i talk to him alot..hahas..
hmmm..what he said to me left me ponder about my past, and how am i gonna be a better person..
although we have different beliefs..but what he said kinda make sense, as in how to cope with people, how you need to think and stuff..
hmmm..being mature is not easy eh? loads of things to learn..
but like what Eng said,
" Life is like alot of stages, when you go to a new stage, you learning something new, so just look forward everytime so that you will learn everytime.
Things are easy, don't fucked it up. Because usually people find their own troubles.
There are always ups and downs in life. thats what makes up life. "

sometimes these sentences sounded quite simple, but things are easier said than done..right?

oh yah..
yesterday at work was great! hahas..the first time i enjoyed so much! :D
hahas..
yeah..something special happened..
and it lasted 2 HOURS! :D
wakakakakas!

gtg..
byeeeeeeee

2009-03-19T13:39:00.004+08:00

let the rain fall upon us..

WHAT A BIATCH.
hmmmm..lets seee..
now i have a reason to why i'm loving char siew rice..
because some people dont like it..
..................................................................
"UNFORTUNATELY", i do know what they are talking about..

hmmmm..
well..what to do?
people do not understand the whole situation what..then they conclude everything..
soon..gossips started to spread like a virus..
then? the person got attacked..yupp.
people WONT find out the WHOLE story...instead they believe parts of it (which are the bad ones), and criticise the person..

THAT piece of crap..
不要以为你可以讲你的语言我不可以..
anyways..
that person cant even see this though.. :)

2009-03-17T22:30:00.003+08:00

BLOGSKIN'S CHANGED! :D

hahas..
and so does my url..
dont tell anyone yeah? SHHHHH..

nah..just trying to keep my blog a more private one..
yeaps..
hahas..

hmmm..another simple blogskin..i would say..but of course..simplicity is the best..
to me..complicated stuff isnt as nice as something so simple..
ahas..

yeah...

this time's so called "theme" is KINGDOM OF COMFORT! :D
inspired by Delirious? latest and LAST ALBUM ( :( ) of the band : My Soul Sings.
yupp..
delirious? is ending their contract by this year end..because every single band members have their own dreams to pursue after so long..
people like Martin Smith (lead vocals and guitar) wishes to continue his CompassionArt project..
the project to help the 3rd World Countries..
recently they just built up a medical center in one of the countries they helped..
this project and the latest album really inspires me..
yeaps..

the last album they produced: My Soul Sings.
inside are songs like God Is Smiling, Rain Down, Deeper, Bliss, How Sweet The Name.
i would say its a mixture of songs from the oldest to the latest recording albums they had.
yupp..
its a must buy! :D

tml's work..
morning shift.. :)
love my work and really do treasure the people there now..
:)

2009-03-14T10:44:00.002+08:00

phew..

miraculously, i didnt even complain during these few days of working! omg.
and in fact, i really do look forward to work more! although im abit tired..but still..the friends there are more important man!
hahas..
im super hyper to things that i like..

anyways..
now got alot of new comers!
hmmmm..should welcome them though..but..
the sad thing is..alot of the old people were asked to return T-pass..
hmm..
nevertheless..new people = more friends.. :D
so yah.. :) hope i can clique with them good enough..hahas...

anyways..
watched dragonball evoulution alr..
one word to decribe it..SHIT!
omg..
piccolo is goku's good friend..and in the movie they become enemy!?!?!?!
how shitty is that man..
oh well..

i wish to change my phone! and in the same time, save up for my BTT,ATT etc etc.
the phone i wana change is damn nice! suits my style..i look more into style and function than the programs inside..
sorry..i'll upload the photo soon..my connection suck big time..LOL..
bye...

2009-03-13T15:31:00.001+08:00

phew..

its been a while since i blogged..
damn..gonna change everything..

need to change:
- blogskin
- blog url
- more entries..

lazy and my fucked up connection here is making me not to blog..
well..

these few weeks has been okay..
and its great to be tanned again! man..
i missed my colour tone for so damn long..didnt had a chance to tan..
but ytd just went! :D

hahas..did had fun and everything..
yupp

will blog more soon..
bye

2009-03-05T23:11:00.002+08:00

sian..

people do misunderstand things..and people really have different perspective on the same situation..

i want to work, but then..
from what the doctor says, i cant really touch salt water..because it may cause infection..

and so..i listened to the doctor and be a good patient..

BUT.

in the end..people think that im skiving off from work..
in the past, yes, maybe im abit lazy to go work..and sometimes i DO ps them last min..
but now im serious eh..
and i told them alr..
but some people duno the situation here..
he thinks that i'm skiving as usual..
IS NOT OKAY.
I WANT TO WORK AND I MEAN IT. :(
oh wells.
complain oso no use, so why complain?
i'm just writing how i feel down..
i dun wan to fight either, tired of it, and whats the use when people fight with each other?
so i rather..
FUCK CARE.

so yah lor..
hmm..
but today has been a rather happy day for me..(apart from the part where i go fetch my cousin..which is as boring as usual)..
hmm..
went back to somewhere where i feel comfortable at..
finally said something..(suppose to be a surprise but...HAHAHAHA)

hmm..start alr right?
lets see..
today is the 5th March..
hahas.. :)

oh wells..gtg..ciaos

2009-03-04T21:39:00.002+08:00

okay, im freaking lazy to blog these few days, oh well.

anyways..
this few weeks are kinda saddening for me..because i cant go work! >,<'
hmm..
anyways..had those stitches removed today..is not a pleasant thing to do because all i feel is..

PAIN.

never minds..
at least i didnt cry..HAHA

hmm..i want to go back work! i came to appreciate alot of things this week..
things like my current job, things around me etc etc.
i will appreciate it as much as i can?
and hope that this mindset sets into my mind..

oh yah..
recently got into some MM (mahjong madness)..
dunno why but just want to play mahjong overnights..ahahas..
WHO'S UP FOR OVERNIGHT MAHJONGING?!?!?

hahas..
school holidays are ending..
april's coming..
sian..what's in store for me in the 2nd year? i wonder..
but anyways..
felt very motivated to save up for my car license..
hahs..
really think that car is something very useful..

but there are several problems like..
1. no money
2. no car
3.v ex to mantain a car..
and more la..

hmm..so i'll try to save up as much as possible lor..

anyways..
i want to go some mini training from next week onwards while i'm working!
must swim like fuck man..
say hi to the fishes..
hmm..its fun u know..talking to fish..hahas..i sound like im a wierdo but its fun la..LOL..
everyone should do some stupid things at some time what..RIGHT?
that's what makes life a fruitful one...:D

p.s. you and me? :D

2009-02-25T19:34:00.001+08:00

雨后总会是晴天.

hahsa..took this after the rain at evening just now..nice right? and if u see it with your eyes, then actually got 2 rainbows..hahahas..

2009-02-24T13:57:00.002+08:00

CAN WE REALLY LIVE WITHOUT MONEY?!?!?!

CAN NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT?!?!?!?!
CAN NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT?!?!?!
CAN NOT?!?!?!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH.WHY EVERYTHING NEEDS MONEY TO SURVIVE?
MONEY HERE AND THERE..
FUCK MONEY LA..KNN..

people with money will be recognised, people without money will be dumped..why?!
why is always rich people that is on the front pages of any magazine/ newpapers, but not normal citizens?

money money money..all need money..how to survive in this world now without them?
everyday eat rubbish?

what the fuck.
i'm so broke and desperate for some cash now.
all because of my fucking hand, i cant work?

this holiday sucks.

2009-02-20T00:41:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2009-02-19T11:29:00.002+08:00

ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch
pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain

first few days is as pain as hell, and slowly, my left hand's movement is gettingmore and more lousy..
hmm..
cant really clench my fist either..oh well..
but the operation was cool! i stayed awake the whole time, looking at that thing that was cut off from me..has a good chat with the doctirs while in op..hahas..nice exp..
but nowadays..i've been doing things one-handedly..like..
1.bathing
2.eating (like a caveman now)
3.brushing teeth (includes squeezing of toothpaste)
4.typing this blog entry now!

yeah..so i'll take longer time to do stuffs now..haha...
gtg..ciao

2009-02-14T01:27:00.003+08:00

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2009-02-10T23:26:00.000+08:00

Frankie Valli
Can't Take My Eyes Off of You

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived.
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

Pardon the way that I stare.
There's nothing else to compare.
The sight of you leaves me weak.
There are no words left to speak.
But if you feel like I feel.
Please let me know that it's real.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

I love you baby, and if it's quite all right,
I need you baby to warm the lonely night.
I love you baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh pretty baby, don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh pretty baby, now that I found you. Stay.

And let me love you, baby. Let me love you ...

I love you baby, and if it's quite allright,
I need you baby to warm the lonely night.
I love you baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh pretty baby, don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh pretty baby, now that I found you. Stay.

Oh pretty baby. Trust in me when I say: Oh pretty baby ...

oldies oldies oldies..
hmm..
well..cant blame me...
IM A FANATIC OF OLDIESSSSS... :)

2009-02-08T22:28:00.002+08:00

hmm..well..this week's so emotional.
tsk tsk tsk.

oh well...anyways..
had a good weekend at least..

hmm..had an enjoyable yet simple night on friday..
yeah..
saturday went to friend's hse to play and slack and play and slack..

today went to work..
my working partner of the day is darren..
luckily he smokes, or else it would be damn boring..
and so, as usual, hoping that time would give grace by moving at a double speed..
hmm..had a good talk with eng..
rubbish, as usual..hahas..and more tips though.. ;)
but he want a WHOLE DUCK as usual..T.T
duck dont have la eng..only dim sum from chinatown want? HAHA

well..all this makes me think lesser..
and had fun..
and at the same time, treasure people around me.. ;)

2009-02-06T13:39:00.002+08:00

i have...

-really small and sore eyes
-sleepless night
-coughing
-abit of runny nose here and there
-diarrhea..
-injured heart

well..
i dont know what to say alr..
just that this few is just against me all the time..
this is what i feeel...
what a good new year start eh..

2009-02-05T01:25:00.002+08:00

in the end..

~~LETTING GO~~ is still the only solution...

what to do?
cant bear to hurt her also..
yupp..
to me, respect is the most important thing in an relationship, followed by understanding..
so..after such a long time of thinking, finally made a decision..

well..
dont know whether is it a right decision..see how it goes lor..
but then,

relationship canNOTTTT be supported by just LOVE alone..

alot of factors are needed to be considered while in a relationship..
its not easy..yeah..
but i still prefer to be attached ar..
because im someone who is sentimental...

what to do...luck is just not being friendly with me..
sighhh..
all the memories..how painful it is to let it down..
how painful..
its a pain that even doctors can't cure it..

to her:
sorry i had to make this decision..i think of both of us before i really come to this conclusion..
like i've told u..since the first day we are together, i have been thinking about it till now..
there's no better solution i can think of to compromise all the barrier right infront of us..
the longer we drag, the painful it gets..
so yah..hope u really understand..this is something i dont want either..
if can, of course i don want this conclusion to happen..

so, this is the story of M and M..
sad to say, it ended so fast and sad..

M and M
started : 8th November 2008
ended : 5th Feb 2009

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

2009-02-02T19:59:00.002+08:00

alot of things are running through my mind now..
don't know why..

hmm..donno whether to be happy or sad now..
it doesnt seems right for me to be happy..
and sad..
how?
i really felt lost this time..

great..
im sick this time round..
and i seriously don feel like getting better..
just continue being sick and sick and sick..
dunno la..

anyways..hope tml im feeling better so i can go out and have a little fun..?
sian..

2009-02-01T22:07:00.003+08:00

IM SICK..

oh man..i felt so bad now..argh..
this morning was under the sun while at work..
lucky got hot water to support me, makes me feel better..but still..i felt as worse as ever..

i got:
- non-stop runny nose, seriously its like a tap.. T.T
- difficulty in breathing..
- not the usual coughing..

etc,etc and etc.

oh well, if worse then i have to seriously go to the doctors..
which is a PITA, otherwise, a.k.a Pain In The Ass.
come to think of it..its pain on my wallet also.. tsk tsk tsk..
oh well..
try panadol first then see how la.. :)

gotta go rest soon..nights! ;D

2009-01-31T00:11:00.000+08:00

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

2009-01-30T11:39:00.002+08:00

sighs..
i am seriously lousy at handling problems.. :(
i really dont know what to do now..

I stand before You Lord
and give You all my praise
Your Love is all I need
Jesus, You're all I need

Now That You're Near - Hillsong Music Australia

the only song that came to my mind in this situation now..

2009-01-24T13:27:00.002+08:00

FINALLLYYYYYYY!!!!!

school's out and break's in!!! :D:D:D
and this year, the break's in with a good introduction : CNY!
hahas..

well..school has been great for me..been loving every moment with my classmates everytime..
although there are ups and downs though..
hmm..first is my sem 1 class..the first class of my walk in RP..
W45H! (Apr - Aug )
hmm..that period was okay..they helped me celebrate my birthday though..at least it is not as bored..
hahas..
yupp..

the sem 2 class will be...
W15G!
at first when i walked in on the first day of school..everyone seems to be so tensed!
but little did i know that they were actually FUN PEOPLEEEEE...
what to do..my class is full of hyper, pervertic, horny, crazy BITCHESSSS (adapted from shanTINY)..HAHAHA...
yeah..
hahas..meet ups on holidays yah? hahas.

well..time really passed very fast..one moment im 18..
i really wonder and curious what is going on in my life for the next few years..
so i can actually get prepared for it..?
dunno...i mean..nowadays everywhere is so competitive eh?
need early preparation..! haha.

anyways..
to monstress:
sorry that today cant meet up today..
tml is a better day! hahahas..
dun sad yah? smile! :)

2009-01-16T23:03:00.005+08:00

TGIF!!

man..for once i really thank god is friday..time seems to be getting slower and slower in class..
and of course..for SOMEEE module..the bloody faci just won work well.. -.-'
maybe not for others, but me..
i just cant click with someone's face that looks like a rapist..HAHA
okay, thats judgemental..whatever! anyway its one more week before the holidays are here! :D
damn it, i reeeeaaallly cant wait to go and have a break!

oh yah firstly, i wana say to the people in W15G:
dudes, sorry for this whole week. i know i did nothing at all for ppt and all, only know how to slack and slack at coffeeshop..
but pls pls pls forgive me!
i got no motivation for school anymore..

so yah..felt abit guilty ar..didnt wan to have hard feelings between us man..so i decided to say it out..hope u guys saw this and understand! :D :D

anyways..CNY coming! dont know whether is it a good thing or bad thing..
good thing ISSS a holiday? you get to visit people (which is kinda happy thing to do when it is a joyful occasion?) etc etc..
well..bad thing is I HAVE TO BUY MY CNY CLOTHES USING MY OWN MONEY AR..
sian..

IPOD TOUCH ---> DELAYEDDDD

shit right? what the hell..
nvm..
oh yah..talking about money..working on the 2nd day of CNY! hahas..
request from ENG though..
shyt, i think i put them aeroplane too much..
argh..lazy lazy lazy..-.-''
laziness can really harm people!!!! >.<' to ENG: i swear i will buy the dim sum at chinatown for you soon! :D anyways..tml ANOTHER outing with monstress! hahas.. yeah! hahas.. i cant think of what to buy sia..so many clothes.. nice one exp, cheap one suck. oh well, thats life. HAHA oh yah.

NEXT WEEK LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL!:)

hahas.
monstress is excited also..why? because there are many outings coming during the holidays!

like:
1.henderson waves..again? :)
2.picnic at:
- chinese garden
- marina barrage
- henderson waves?
3.some place she mentioned that the place has nice scenery.?

and more and more!!! :D:D
hahas..
update soon..:D

2009-01-13T11:55:00.003+08:00

SHAWN IS WUUGUII MASTER FROM KUNG FU PANDA! HAHAHAHA.

hahas..LOOK LIKE RIGHTTT..
okay..
classes nowadays are super boring..
everyday with a "cabot" mindset to school man..tsk tsk!
anyways!
LAST UT OF YEAR 1 IS THIS THURSDAYYYYYYYY!!!
muahahahahahahas! :)

okay, i really think RP rocks..
i can really adapt here..i think i will suck at lectures man..tsk tsk..
hahahas..
sia la.

very long nv blog alr..OH YEAH..

ONE,
ONE,
ONE,
ONE,
ONE MORE WEEK
holidays!

WOHOOO!
but on the other hand,
seperating from W15G ar..
sian sian sian..
this class rocks man! can tell u..
the people here are cool..
ahahahas..
yupps..
gtg..ciaozxzxz!

2009-01-08T11:27:00.002+08:00

I WANN TO MEET POI CHING'S SCHOOL VOLLEYBALL TEAM!!!

-JUN HAO
-NIGELLLLLLLLLL
-ZHENG YAN
-ERIC

AND SOMEMORE I CANT REMEMBER..AHAHAHHAS..

AND EX-CLASSMATES!

-RENA KUAAAAA :D
-ALVIN?
-ELAINE

AND MORE LA..

hahas...5 years nv contact! i cant remember all!
pri. 6E'03 contact me!!! :)

2009-01-07T20:00:00.002+08:00

CHEW JIA JUN

doesnt know how to control his temper
doesnt know how to be not too sensitive
doesnt know how to handle things
is USELESS..

thats all i can say nw..
but these few days has been an emotional period for me..
FUCK la.

when can i meet pcs pri.6E's members?

2009-01-06T21:23:00.003+08:00

COGNITIVE COGNITIVE COGNITIVE..

what a fantastic module to take up eh? -.-
today was such a irritated day..it's not the first time like this alr..ahhh..:(
well..everything felt so different today..
today was like, can pissed off the moment something goes wrong..phew..
just felt so angry all the time today..
i seriously need anger management? :S
oh well..

i hope holidays are here sooner..just think that school is so boring with the UTs..
still got some fucked up modules like cognitive..with a fucked up faci like..u know i know la..
the one who smiled because of ANYTHING.. -.-
grrr..

yesterday had a good talk with george..and what he said keeps me thinking and thinking..
and..im so worried now..so stress now..
ah...yeah..
imagine you got something you like or interested in..you love it so so very much..then you own that thing..then in the end someone stole it from you..or spoil until the extend that it is beyond repair..how would you feel?

hmm..hope things worked out like what i've planned..
well..

shyt..next tues cant pon class..if not for UT ar..
tsk tsk tsk..

ahh..this is a shyt blog post..
with full of shyt words and comments..
well..blog is somewhere people vent their anger on..or write their thoughts down eh?
yupp..im making full use of a blog right here..right now..
i'll be fine soon..

2009-01-02T20:31:00.004+08:00

NEW YEAR NEW YEAR NEW YEAR.

its a new year! say bye to 2008 and HI to 2009!!!

hahas..well..this week is kinda busy with my work..yeah..
worked at Siloso Beach Party! hahas..
as an assistant boatman of the night..hahas..
all i have to do?
patrol around by driving the boat the whole night..something like that..
ahahas..well at least i got the best view for the fireworks! :D

its abit blur tho..used camera phone..hahas..yupp..i took it on the boat! hahahahs..
lol..
yah..the whole night was nothing but full of fun, noise, craziness and everything..!!
this is the form party and the tents..hahas..

hahas..yupp..something like that..hahaass..

and guess what? i needed 3 CANS OF REDBULL to keep me awake the whole night...and i was so super awake in the morning..LOL..3 hrs of sleep and im awake again!

hahas..met up with philbert they all..hahas..its nice to have meetups like this..although the no. of people is not much..but still fun ar!
got me, th, jason, philbert and that xr(extra spare tyre la)..HAHAHA

yupp!
man..still misses my secondary school days..hahs..with an blink of an eye..gonna be year 2 soon!
how fast eh?
and..
I'M TURNING 18 THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!! WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO! :D:D

hahhas..yupppp

tml's meetup with monstress!
postponed today's program to tomorrow as she needs to see doctor..:S
hahas..
yeah..take care ya? i'll see u tml! :D misses~
hahas..

ciaos!

2008-12-31T14:19:00.002+08:00

hmm..its New Year's Eve! :D

hahas..going to work later..but before that..i felt like writing down this year's reflection..

hahas..
yupp..
hmm.this year is the fastest year that went with a blink of an eye..
it was super fast that everyone didnt realise that it was ending until christmas?
hmm..well..alot of things happen this year..
like a new chapter started for me..as this year is the 1st year in RP..
hmm..life has been good for me..to be in RP is something lucky for me..
i still remember clearly that i took the trouble to go ITE clementi to apply, to buy uniform.
and in the end? went back again to cancel my place there..because RP last minute accepted me in the DAE excercise..well..
some money are lost but its still worth it eh? didnt regret one bit that i came to the school..although sometimes its abit far but..life there is fun..so..why not? :D

this year's year start has been quite difficult for me..as i was going through loads and loads of problems..
i'll never forget what happen on last year's christmas eve..
but something last year happened..which impacted me quite deeply..so the impact so called 'brought forward' to this year..but now everything is okay..

now?
im happy with..
- who i am
- my life
- monstress
- school
- work
and somemore i cant remember ar..hahas..
yeah..

well..its NYE and i will be working at Sentosa's Siloso Beach Party..starting at 8pm to 6am next day ( or next year.HAHA)..
have to reach at 5pm for us though..no idea what was going on..
but had a bad feeling that they wanted us to bring down the boat together..
as the boat is freaking heavy?!?!?!
tsk tsk..
this is what i called SAI GANG(shyt job)..

well..
monstress will be having a good time at ECP with her family eh? hahas.
the auntie baby! :D
lol..will be playing catching all with her nieces? :D
the chubby ones of course..haha..

to monstress:
happy new year! :D
hahas.much loves from me to you! :)
pls take care of urself as you are sick..hahas..
and friday! last one-whole-day outing before school starts..:(
hahas..nevertheless..i still spend time wif u ma..:)
hahahas..
LOVES~
PS:the words are in red purposely, is because this is your fav. colour. :)

gtg! :D but before that..
happy new year everyone..:)
hahas..
to everyone:
new year, new start
don't dwell on your past, but learn from it.
think more of the positive side than the negative side, things will go more smoothly. :)
and treasure everything before they are lost, or else REGRET is the only word you will face..
hahas..and lastly..
SMILE ALL THE TIME! :D:D

2008-12-27T21:51:00.006+08:00

lalala~

phew..its been a while since i blogged! hahas..
looks like the blogging spirit is back within me! blog so often..(than usual)
hahas..busy with so many things going on..

painting of my room is still going on..damn..-.-''
okay..i've painted almost 95% of my room alr..just need to touch up the small corners around the room and i'm done..
okay..super shagged after painting..

and yesterday night just worked from 11am - 12am..
13 WHOLE SOLID HOURS OKAYY..
hahas..but it was okay la..time passed kinda fast..so yah..
and surprisingly..im not so impatient to go work..hahas..
oh yah..
I MAY WORKED AT SILOSO BEACH PARTY!

hahas..yupp! they say i got a bigger chance that i will get chosen because i didn't work at ZoukOut..
this time the Countdown will be very fun!

with....
10 HOURS OF PARTYING
90,000 METRE SQUARE PARTY AREA
8 METRE HIGH PYROTECHNICS
7 MILLION FOAM BUBBLES
6 HUNDREDS DANCE HITS
5 ROVING ACTS
4 INTERNATIONAL DJS
3 PARTY ZONES
2 LIVE BANDS

THE 1 PLACE TO BE FOR NEW YEAR'S EVE!

hahas..hurry get ur tixs now! :D:D
for more information, go to www.sentosa.com.sg..:)

damn..
hope i really can work this time! :D
saving up for my new precious item! :D
hahas..think i'll be able to buy it on january..!!!

hmm..this holiday has been very good and fun-filled! :D
hahas..with loads of events going on..
hahas..like...
ZOO.
MOVIES.
HANGING OUT.
SPENDING PRECIOUS TIME.

hahas..yeaps..:D
love this holiday! :D
hahas..
hopefully can go overseas eh? :D

yupp..
oh yah..have u guys watched IP MAN?
TAKE NOTE: IT IS PRONOUNCED AS IP MAN ( EEP, MUN)..
alot of people pronounced it wrongly..
these are the few:
(AI, PEE, MAN)
(EEP, MAN)
lol..sounded quite funny..
anyways..i gave that show a rating of 4.5/5!
those who love fighting shows pls pls pls go watch it!!! :D
its freaking fast! :D
donnie yen's martial arts is one of the good ones! :D:D:D

hahas..yeaps..
so..
christmas is over..
did everyone enjoyed themself?
hahas..even though it was simple..but i did enjoyed mine! :D
hahas..
okay...

til then! :D
ciaos~

2008-12-22T15:46:00.005+08:00

as you can see..my room is under maintenance..well..
painting the whole room!
but from the 1st pic..i onli painted the ceiling..HAHA..
abit lazy now..SHYT!
if i continue to be like this..i'll never finish the job man..damn..
gonna finish it up sooner or later when i have a free day..
who is willing to help me paint also?

hahas..nah..just kidding..

this week has been going up and down for me..
hmm..

the ups is that...
FINALLY THE ZOO TRIP IS A SUCCESS!

omg..is like so freaking long la..plan and plan and plan..
in the end then can go..so yah..well..did manage to went there and had fun!
so does she..:)
hahs..
and i 'took home' loads of stuff other than memories...
like..
CARLOS THE SEALION!
and...

ZUZU THE HIPPO!

hahahahas! omg.
there is actually a baby hippo named ZUZU! lol..

okay..hahs..but it was fun la..
and the giraffes are very funny..
they amazed me..
lol..because when the zoo keepers went into their area..
they literally stone at their position..
i mean..really stone! doesnt even move an inch..HAHA..
funny eh? :)

too bad the pictures arent here yet..onli some..well..tsk tsk..stupid internet connection ar..

hahas..took photo at the crocodile place..of cox must have a crocodile pose! hahas! except (ahem)..lol..she is excited to see spiders i think? :P

hahas..
thats the fun part..now..is the down part..

hmm..
went slacking with afix quite a few days ago..hmmm..saw someone la..
that someone has a very deep influence in me ar..
hmm..well..
after seeing that person..
dunno where to smile or to frown? its been so long since i last saw that person and the thing happened for so long alr..
well..seeing that person makes me think alot these few days..
but i'll be fine soon..:)

another one is christmas..
i know christmas is a very important day for christians..
talked to joyce just now..
what she said makes sense ar..
hmm..
makes me think alot again..
well...im a sensitive person..how can u ask me not to think soo much?
christmas christmas christmas..
the onli day in one whole year im looking forward to..

god, am i really not ready at that time? i was so happy when i got chosen to play for you..
and got kicked out during the probation period really saddens me..because that is the only way i can serve you..from my point of view..
im not blaming anyone because they have a standard to follow..
the reason im not going back is because they way people look at me..
so now, God, i've talked to you about my problems..will you help?
because i've a trusted friend who told me to talk to You, and i think i shall believe for once..
since i've backslided for quite some time now..
anwer me pls....

2008-12-19T23:38:00.001+08:00

my favourite characterrr!!
SILENCE! I KILL UUUU!!!!
hahas..

and thats Achmed the Dead Terrorist! :D
in christmas special! hahas..watch it! its funnY!

2008-12-18T11:44:00.003+08:00

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiTouchhh?!

omgzxzxzx..
my mouth is drooling the moment i sees this..HAHA..
gonna get it soon..HOPEFULLY..:):)

well..the first week of holidays is very slack for me..went to play and play and slack and play..LOL..
next week! start to work and train..cannot drag anymore..hahahs..;)
phew..2008's a fast year man..its like the moment we are celebrating The New Year of 2008, then the next moment we are celebrating the Nation's Countdown..
and this year there's no more countdown party at sentosa! i think..:(
which means i cant work on any event..AGAIN..tsk tsk tsk tsk..

sian..more work days are coming next week..hope i can tah han all and just go buy the iTouch! :)
hope, hope, hope.
someone told me that hoping will have a slight chance of success, in any situation. :)

WHERE IS MY MONSTAAAA???? :)